Nov 21 2018, 08:31 PM

Is it just me or does certain songs or bands turn anyone on?! ‘Cuz *bites lip* I’ve just wound myself right up

Nov 20 2018, 10:33 PM

To you, I’m a dick and I’m sorry. Sometimes I don’t think before I speak (and type) and sometimes I forget that maybe you feel same way about everything as I do. I never could quite understand why anyone would give a shit about me or think of me the way you say you do. I can’t accept myself so I guess I don’t think anyone else would accept me. Because you do. I don’t know why, with all my flaws, but you do. You said you care - to me that shit is real <3 Upsetting you is fucking horrible. I am so sorry. Please forgive me? Always, Me 😘

Nov 19 2018, 07:38 PM

Ask me anything. One question each and I cannot lie.

Nov 18 2018, 08:57 PM

I climb, I slip, I fall Reaching for your hands But I lay here all alone

Nov 15 2018, 05:56 PM

I really wish things were different </3

Nov 14 2018, 04:13 PM

This is 100% your letter...so shut up and read this. By now you really know this is about you. I was always taught not to regret anything you do in life. But lately I think I’ve broken this. I have a fair few regrets about my past and you are by far my biggest. Or rather the missed chances were. Even after all this time we still have this weird ass relationship build on missed chances and it seems there really are some things time can’t change. Now on this next bit is all me...i’m not you and I can’t speak for your thoughts and feelings. Nothing ever changed. The years have gone by, both our lives have moved on to bigger things but how I felt never did change. I’ve never spoken on and off with someone for nearly a decade and each time picked up where we left off like we’d never stopped taking. This latest time though? That’s still going and I think that’s been the longest run in a very long time. And I really don’t want it to end. I love talking to you. The stupid conversations, song swapping and even the serious talks that bare all. I even have this horrible feeling when we have our off days and don’t talk. I miss you 🤷🏻‍♀️ But here’s the thing...I’m not stupid. With all the people you know and all that you own there is no hope in hell it’s just me. There’s probably more than one person that you have this kinda thing with. And that’s absolutely okay - we have our own lives right? But you gotta understand, the things you say...they mean something and they stay with me. And some of them hurt too. Don’t say stuff you don’t mean. Please. I’d love to see you again - we have a long past and the fact so much has changed with both us means a catch up is long overdue. But again...you won’t. And I don’t believe the previous excuses. It’s because you like the distance. The fact you can type a few words, press send and never worry about it. You are one of the closest people to me...I just want to see you. Nothing else but a “hello”. I guess that’s everything. No idea if you’ll take the time to read this or even care. But now you know Don’t do a runner. I just needed to get a few things off my chest

Nov 10 2018, 10:48 PM

I don’t think people quite understand the affects words can have on people. I held alot of faith in you...you were always there. I’m not the easiest person to have around, I get that. My moods are worse than a rollercoaster and I have the worst case of wanting what I cannot have. But this fucked up, weird ass friendship(?) worked. It kept me grounded, it kept me sane. It made me feel like someone loved having me in their life and that occasionally I was just special enough to be thought about. Something you said tonight hurt. Probably more than it should have and now I don’t feel so safe anymore. I feel like you’re gone. That actually I’m not as important to you as you led me to believe. That hurts 💔

Nov 09 2018, 08:17 PM

😔 💔

Oct 30 2018, 06:22 PM

Can you help the hopeless? Well, I'm begging on my knees Can you save my bastard soul? Will you ache for me?

Oct 25 2018, 06:44 AM

And I almost had you - but I guess that doesn’t cut it