1000's of emo guys & girls!
I never felt this falt paaaiiin paaaaaaiiiiiiiiinnnnn pppppaaaaaaaiiiiiiinnnn ppppaaaaaaiiiiiin paaaaaaiiiiiiin paaaaiiiiiinnnnnn youknowyourriinsight you knowtourriiiiight youknowyouriiiiiiiiiiight you know you're right, by Nirvana
Ghost Spectre
18 / Nonbinary / PA, United States
Bisexual / Broken Hearted
Member since:
Sep 04, 2024
Last online:
Apr 10, 2025
right now my favorite song is Remember to Feel Real by Armor for Sleep☆, my favorite band is Get Scared, & my favorites playlist is here <3
i love horror, and musicals, i read a lot of books too, rn im doing some political reading... im also reading Desolation by Stephen King! my favorite movie right now is Blacula (and, subsequently, Scream Blacula Scream). my favorite show atm is Supernatural. and i am forever a Creepypasta kid (and proud!!!). i also rlly like Sonic the Hedgehog☆(comics especially)
Friends! i dont rlly have any... its the depression and social anxiety...... if u message me and i don't mssg back im sorry.. im happy you tried but i probably had an irl panic attack, lol....
AAAAAGGH!!¡ im starting to think that manhua/manhwa fans just hate women. these people have to be legitimate misogynists istg. its always "no bitches, no harems, no romance!!!" "no annoying sl*ts" "hopefully no LI" AND ITS GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!
and- thats not to say that the girls in manhua are perfect~ or flawless~ or that i haven't hated them, or even that i don't dread the appearance of FLs or love interests...! i get it!! they can be so badly written that its FUCKINF EGREGIOUS!!!
these chicks can be so 2d that they are actually 1d- screw it 0d!!!! its traumatic!!! the bratty tsundere that with no prompting whatsoever is all head over heels for the MC... the damsel in distress (sometimes a slave.. normally elf/beastkin) that is now indebted to the MC and will do aNyThInG~ to pay him back... 
(^ this trope exists to show how JuSt and RiGhTeUs ML is... gross...)
All of these tropes SUCK!
BUT! these people.... even if the girl is well written, with dreams, goals, & aspirations outside of the ML & flaws that are intentionally written... THESE PEOPLE ARE STILL NOT HAPPY!!! D:< constantly complaining.... "dropping this because annoying FL 🙄" "i used to like this until [insert color here] haired bitch showed up😒"
DIIIIIIEEE KYSSSSS (not actually)
MY BELOVED CHRISTA DID NOTHING WRONG!!!!!! (pretend i didn't say this)
and i like romance sub plots!!!!! my favorite happens to be either rivals 2 lovers or arranged marriage, i know that it sucks irl but thats why its fun in fiction! especially when its done right~ and even more when MC objects to it... but then normally one of these things happen
entitled cunt turned groupie [or] desprate damsel turned independent lady ♡
neither of them wanted to marry ML but the second person was going to sacrifice their happiness and learn to love a stranger for the good of their family and people... so cool and responsible ♡ but after some self-sacrifice and character development she becomes even cooler by learning that she can be useful outside of the home or marriage!! uwaa! (i gave her cool sword+armor!!)
but yeah rant essentially over idk why i get so upset over this lol OBVIOUSLY this happens because most of the manhua i read are Shōunen Gary Stu Male Fantasy-esque BS (i like them) so the people who read it (and write it) aren't normally great at Women™ and get the Girls = Bad brain disease or cant imagine a girl character existing outside of her relationship with her male counterpart (whether thats for better or worse) :/
so, uh, yeah im done. lol thnx 4 reading ig
outside of being a shameless yaoi ota (lol) my life is on whatever the opposite of the "up and up" is (down & down? spiraling?? rock bottom???) well, whatever, what im trying to say is that my life sucks.
i keep having dreams about a girl i haven't spoken to in years and haven't seen in longer, i love her. i know that loving someone means being happy that they are doing well even if you aren't involved with them anymore.... but she promised she wouldn't leave me.... yet her life still goes on without me,, it feels so wrong even now....
i have a difficult time merely remembering what joy used to feel like before meeting her,,,, however it felt is certainly inferior to what i felt in her presence.
my world is so dull without her that even internet escapism doesn't help sometimes...
(^probably u guys rn lol)
im never gonna love again </3
there's obviously worse things going on in my life than distressing dreams with girls that probably hate me but urrfgb c sdhggg they certainly don't help.
im going to sleep... its 3am T_T
(dont mind me, im being an otaku again)
thinking about writing some boy yuri where kouno and shihoudani fall in love with eachother but yuujirou also has feelings for mikoto (whose straight for his gf) and kouno is "sure" that he reaaally doesn't like men- despite never Actually thinking about his sexuality, he just always found women more visually appealing and figured that since men are ~ugly & gross~ (by his standards) he couldn't possibly be attracted to them (im definitely NOT projecting rn*) Until he meets Yuujirou
some drama happens,
then they fucknasty (yayy)
the writing is gonna take some time on its own but i might just render a oneshot doujinshi as a means of practicing/honing my ~artistic capabilities~ . I'll update you guys on the journey, 4 anyone that's interested :p
waifus.... a necessity. obviously, as the saying goes~ no waifu = no laifu. so im going to make a list of some of the cutest girls (& boys) that live in my brain. not all of them though, because i could go on forrrreeeevvver >///< and some of my waifus&husbandos are "hear me out" material... i have no shame in lewding lolis (or shotas) and the way i ship will make ur average puriteen baw so, u have been warned.
sebastian stardew valley~♡
frog liking, basement dwelling, tabletop enjoying, motorcycle riding, emo boy, waah~~♡ (*ii) perfect though, i don't like that he smokes but he stops once you marry him... he also stops hanging out with his friends as much.... ANYWAY!
blugeoning☆angel dokuro-chan <3
Sweet & Sadistic, the hero we needed not the hero we deserved, defending our universe from the threat of immortality and immorality♡
the magical girl Pantano Pesca!
my #2 favorite girl pervert~ bespectacled himejoshi~ lots 2 love here
haruhi fujioka
boy? girl? doesn't matter ♡ i love them all the same.
more l8r :3 eepy