If they knew...
people dont understand me
people ask "why can't you just be happy", "just think about the positive", "i don't get depression."
depression can eat you alive. it isn't my fault i can't be happy. im sorry im so sad. im sorry i really am. i have honestly tried so hard but there is just a dark cloud over my head 24/7i barley get sleep anymore.
i struggle in school.
nobody listens but if they do they won't understand.
i can't trust people. and it sucks. i don't even trust some of my friends with some things. it's bad. i have SERIOUS trust issues.
but i can't help it.i have been hurt so much i can't trust many people that much.
sometimes i just want a different life.
sometimes i just want to run away somewhere else and change my name and pretend to be someone else so nobody knew the real me. hell what i would do for that right now.
my own family doesn't get it.
my friends don't get it.
my boyfriend doesn't always get it either.
im just a big mess.
i need to vent more.
but im just going to stop for now.
goodnight :(
