You've got my shaking
From the way you're talking,
My heart in breaking
But there's no use crying,
What a cyanide surprise
You have left for my eyes,
If I had common sense I cut myself
Or curl up and die Sarcasm, by Get Scared
Maddy Bohden
24 / Female / inver grove, United States
Member since:
Feb 07, 2017
Last online:
Oct 31, 2019
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About Me
First thing ... I hate talking about myself Cx Thats pretty much all you need to know Add me on instagram : xxnextmistakexx
Favourite Music
Can this be bands or artists??
Asking Alexandria
Suicide Silence
Machine Gun Kelly
Bring Me The Horizon
Twenty One Pilots
Jack And Jack
Skate
My Chemical Romance
G-Easy
Sik World
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Films * taps chin *
Nightmare on elm street
War Of The Worlds
Resident Evil
Underworld
TV * light bulb *
AMERICAN HORROR STORY
The Magicians
Lets just not name these because honestly there are way too many to name
Education / Occupation
Still in high school but going to Columbia ( and art school in Chicago ) after i graduate
Who I'd Like To Meet
Anybody who is willing to take risks and spark a conversation ( im super antisocial and will never EVER start the conversation or message someone first Cx )
i hate this stupid school ... i got to school today and yet again the janitor is cleaning stuff off my locker ... i get beat up and then sent home ... AND the principle blamed it all on me " maybe if you were more relatable to the other kids " ... How in the world is this my fault ?? so what i dont dress like the stupid preps that shouldnt make me the target of bullying ... I just cant deal with this shit anymore !!!
Im going to announce to the world that my teacher just called me man grape * face palm * kill me now Cx apparently i have the ankles of a grape ??? What the fuck is that even supposed to mean ??? he cant see my ankles i have skinny jeans on Cx
I'll get judged if i write what i want to write and then put it out to the world !! So i'll keep it inside and keep you wondering what's going on in my messed up mind !!!
I want to hide myself ! I don't want to show my face in fear that everyone will judge me ! i know i'm not picture perfect ( believe me i know ) but i don't want to be criticized by all the people that think they are better then me ! tomorrow i plan on posting new picture's but i'm scared of what everyone else will think about me .... I shouldn't care about what others think but i find myself in the back of my mind always wondering " what will other people see when they look at this picture ? " No matter how many people tell me " oh your not fat " Or " your beautiful to me " i always find myself telling them to stop lying to me ... i push away anyone who could remotely care about me only because i don't want them to judge me in the end ... should i continue to hide away or should i be myself and take the bad things people say about me and move on ?
I would be lying if i didnt say my life sucks. Believe me all i want to say is that my life is great and im okay but lying is against my morals. i would also be lying if i didnt say i had friends, honestly i have too many friends and most of them are the worst people you can think of. but yet i still feel lonely. ik steryotypical right ? but its true....i go to school day by day in a haze of drug indused nothingness... i try day by day to put on a smile and live my life ... but nothing helps !
Judge me if you want but i have to put my feelings down somewhere !!!
