Aug 12 2012, 07:20 PM

Blood blood what a wonderful thing Blood blood in a ring Its all around its on the ground Its in the air But no one cares Its on the walls Its on the window pane Its everywhere its such a pain They say don't spill it and yet they do They never even loved you. Its like little crumbs of bread Leaving a trail except in red its runs through our veins It spills like rain Its blood Its blood Its blood

Aug 09 2012, 05:07 PM

Well toda was the first day of high school. Yep I'm a freshman. And I happened to see a hot guy in the hallway. But I'm to shy to start talking to him. I need help trying to talk to him. I want love. But the fear of rejection is to strong. Ugh what do I do. I want to actually date a guy. But a guy who actually likes me. Guess I gotta see if skylar will hook me up with somebody. This is gonna be a long year.

Aug 07 2012, 10:25 PM

The simplist of words is also the most complicated to understand. The hardest to get. And the easiest to lose. You can spend years earning it. And a second losing it. You can feel it all through your body. You can feel it in your soul. You can come from the brink of death when you have it. And go to the brink of death when you lose it. Its not a physical object but an emotional feeling. Its something that if it is true and pure it will only come once in your life. Its beautiful to have. And a nightmare to lose. Its something that can never be erased. It is something that can be taken away. It is something earned not taken or bought. It is a very powerful feeling called love. Something so rare if I hadn't seen it I wouldn't have ever believed it existed. Its a bond that can't be cut or broken. This is love. Its something I havnt found nor do I feel. Its something I pray for everyday. Its something so pure and true you would only thing god could achieve. But god is the one who created it that it took his pure and true qualities and mimiced him. It something that everyone will feel. Its something we will all find someday. I hope u all find ur true love and live long with them and are the happiest you can be.

Aug 06 2012, 12:13 AM

U know I always try and talk people out of harming themselves. But I just hurt my self. I didn't cut with a razor and draw blood but I did rub my skin raw with a sharp rock without drawing blood. Felt good like it was numb like none of my problems existed. But I don't want to leeave a trace for my mom to find out about it. No one knows my problems. Not my mom. Not my dad. Not my family. No one. My problems arnt physical problems but emotional problems. I don't want to be hated. I don't want to be ugly. I don't want to be around people. I feel like every negative situation is going to come true. Like my number one nightmare. I'm never going to find a guy that really cares about me. My nightmare haunts me everyday. The one everybody has. That one where you die and didn't even get to really live. It lumes over me everyday. I need a freaking break sometimes. I need to forget about my life. Forget about everything. I need to make myy nightmares turn to dreams. I need to actually feel loved. Fucking family doesn't count for shit. They just don't fucking understand. They want me to be great but I'm fucking not. They fucking want me to get over my problems and losse the attitude. They just don't fucking understannd. At all and never will. Nobody does. Nobody will. And nobody can help me. They can try but they wont help me.they say their going to be there. They lie. They say they love you. They lie. If they loved me wouldn't I feel loved? If I felt loved then why do I crave to be loved by somebody. If they understand why do they say they don't? If they knew my every thoughts then why don't they lock me up so I can't hurt myself? They don't understand. They don't really love me. Nobody does. Nobody will. I'm not ever gonna find love from anybody. I'm never gonna find peace. They just don't understand. I do need help but I'm to afraid to ask for it. In fear of being judged and gaining dissappointment and sympathy and guilt from my parents. Its their fault I feel this way. Its their fault I feel the need to feel physical pain. Its their fault I want to balance out my physical pain and my emotional pain. It all thir fault and they don't even know what I'm goin through. Its all their fault. And I'm paying for it. Jim always in the middle. Always paying for their faults. One day I wont be there for them. One day thhey pay for their own mystakes. Intil that day I'm stuck in the middle. I'm screwed. I'm messed up. I'm broken

Jul 28 2012, 09:57 AM

when feeling down don't just hang around get up off the ground and move on. You may not see that now but look for the light at the end of the tunnel. There is always gonna be somebody who wants to knock you down and give you a kick. But also remember there is always going to be somebody to pick you up and guide you to the end of the tunnel that is luring over you.