Jun 07 2016, 03:50 PM

The girl who wanted to fit in There was a girl who just wanted to fit in to be normal. she said goodbye to all her blades she changed her cloths, she stopped warring dark makeup she did everything in her power to normal but no matter how much she changed her look she was still the same inside she still felt broken like there was something missing but she didn’t understand why she was still sad .she finally fit in she finally was normal so why? Why does she feel like this in till it hit her in the face literally the girls who picked on her came up to her in the bathroom at school and laughed, kicked and punched her before they walked away from her they said to her ( you may have change your look but you will always be a freak) and that’s when she gave up she ran home and locked herself in her room crying for hours in till she just felt like she had enough of it, she went down to the kitchen were her mom and dad were having a conversation she started looking around her mom asked what she was looking for the girl did not answer. she went and grabbed a knife and she stabbed her self right in the heart and her parents screamed her name as she fell as her mom went and held the girl in her arms crying the dad just stands there in shock and he finally called the 9-1-1 and when the cops got there she was already …gone there went through her room searching for something that might explain why she would so such a thing to herself and when they look threw her desk there was a note and in that not it said “ To whoever finds this note: you are most likely wondering why I would do this to myself well here is why because all my life I have been different and iv been judge and picked on for being myself and I just can’t take it anymore. I don’t know if I’ll ever truly understand why I never fit in. was it because was I not pretty enough? Did I were the wrong cloths? Did I listen to the wrong music or say the wrong things? Why I don’t understand I just wanted to be like the other girls I wanted to fit in because I’m sick of feeling so alone. I’m sick of being a nobody I wanted to be someone and I tried but it didn’t work I was still known as the freak and that’s all I ever was going to be known for, so I did what was best. I was doing the word a favor.I can’t take any more of the pain I’m sick of being in the dark...I’m sorry. The girls at school found out about what she did they were shocked of what the girl had done. They didn’t think the girl would kill herself they didn’t mean to take it that far. They felt so horrible……all the girl wanted to do was be normal she just wanted to fit in and have friend...But was it worth it? The boy who sat next to her in class was devastated because he thought the girl was perfect the way she was and he was so mad that she felt like she had to change just to make them stop picking on her and look where it got her. _END by kat

May 06 2016, 04:17 AM

sometimes i feel like i will never fit in with everyone else and that i dont fit in....sometimes i wonder if i will be loved by someone that will treat me right and that can hold me when i need it most ... i wanna feel free but all i feel is "ISOLATION" and it hurts i cut everyday hopping to get rid of some of the pain but it doesn't work so i try pills but then im scared to fall asleep because i know i wont wake up and i want to believe theirs hope for me .....sometimes that little bit of hope goes away..</3..im slipping away slowly...im hurting the once who care but i dont understand why they care ...i feel so alone yet im surrounded by people everyday...im loved but yet i dont feel loved..i want to cry everyday but yet i dont show it ...i dont know how much longer i can take it ..i dont know how much longer i can last ..i wanna "LIVE" but i wanna "DIE" why cant they see im never ok why cant they see im hurting and confused because "i dont know" why i feel this way and im scared ..im scared of what i might do or become.........IM SCARED.

May 04 2016, 04:53 AM

she sits in her room...all day/all night...thinking,wishing preying...that someone or something will take all the pain away...she knows that things have to get better somehow but she wonders when. she wants it to be now bc she cant take it anymore...she can handle anymore of the pain....her monsters tell her to take her life and she wants to but she holds on..she holds on to that last shimmering light hopping that the light will guide her out of the darkness hopping that she wont have to be scared anymore.and maybe just maybe theirs a chance .....a chance of happiness for her bc shes only 15 and she want to live and grow and love and be loved.so she just lays there in her room hopping,wishing,preying that one day it will come true........

May 04 2016, 04:52 AM

you have a fake smile at school so people don't ask you whats wrong.you have a fake smile at home so your mom and dad don't know your unhappy or alone.you go to your room and listen to music you turn it up all the way you start to cry thinking about what had happened wishing you could change the passed but you cant.you try to tell you mom but she don't understand you walk away back to your room you cry your self to sleep the day repeats.the few people who care cant see you pain and the people who hate you pick on you and pushes you around like you nothing lunch time you go to the bathroom and cry then you fix your make up and put the same old fake smile on and go back to lunch you don't eat. the bell rings you go to class you sit in the back of the room with your head down and you don't talk the bell rings you walk home you finally get home to you dad yelling at you. you run to your room music up loud and start to cry wishing the pain will all just go away but it doesn't it just gets worse you cry yourself to sleep again and the day repeats.