Never Again.I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine. Maybe when you find out that I'm dead, you'll realize what you did to me.
Smashed Into Pieces, by Silverstein
Member since:
Nov 21, 2015
Last online:
Nov 25, 2016
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About Me
Hi you can call me Heather, I'm sorry if I am not the most attractive thing on earth, haha. I'm short and quite small in real life, I have 7 cats and 1 pitbull, I love junk food, especially hot takis. I sing a lot, I know how to play a flute.
Favourite Music
Rock music such as the following: Of Mice And Men
Pierce The Veil Sleeping With SIrens Ghost Town Blood On The Dance Floor Asking Alexandria Sworn In Counterparts Bring Me The Horizon Suicide Silence My Chemical Romance Panic! At The Disco Fall Out Boy Paramore Black Veil Brides Falling In Reverse Escape The Fate Chiodos D.R.U.G.S We Came As Romans Memphis Mayfire Chelsea Grin Emmure (sometimes) Crown The Empire Killswitch Engage The Amity Affliction Blink-182 Avenged Sevenfold Three Days Grace Papa Roach Green Day Nirvana Jimmy Eat World Plain White T's All American Rejects Famous Last Words Consider Me Dead Marilyn Manson Slipknot Nightcore (I know this one is not really a rock band but I do highly suggest that you check them out if you don't mine electronic/dubstep music and anime) I know that is not all at all, and yes I love Nirvana and All Time Low and Metallica and Pantera, this list would be quite long if I named all the bands that I liked. Haha I even listen to Jefree Starr sometimes =^.^=
Favourite Films / TV / Books
I hardly ever watch TV however I do love to watch youtubers like MyDigitalEscape and Shane Dawson and Joey Graceffa, fullmetaljaxon, Taylor Terminate, Julia Jackknife, Madeline Macabre, and such... Johnnie Guilbert and Jordan Sweeto, and Aquamarin, BryanStars, lol I love them all!!! HeyThereImShannon
I like a lot of Harry Potter and Twilight, but am also into the emotional love stories, would love to read The Fault In Our Stars as well
Education / Occupation
Highschooler xD Would love to do Cosmetology in the future, and also do music and art
Who I'd Like To Meet
I'd like to meet all my favorite bands xD musicians, artists, and the voice actor from black butler that plays as sebastian xD
Last night I bleached my hair and it is all orange, I ran out of it however so a section in the back is a dark brown color or medium brown. Lol, my hair matches my cat's fur. (He is a ginger kitten)
My boyfriend broke up with me a couple of days ago but he claimed that he was unable to love and was emotionless, he couldn't feel a thing. He did not want to lead me on with false hope of being loved, so he broke up with me. He said that he was made to just die alone, and these past few days it had been really depressing.I wonder what I did wrong. I kept crying and flipping out in class and getting panic attacks. It hurt, a lot. I thought that I was in love with him and I still think that I am but then again I don't know what to do because for the whole two months that me and him were dating he never felt the same way that I did. I loved him but he didn't love me although he would tell me that he did all the time, we would always hug and kiss. He is a wonderful human being but I could never imagine that he was ever this broken. I didn't want to lose him, it was like, I knew at some point that he was going to break up with me but I didn't want it to happen, so that's why I couldn't prepare myself for it... But he said "I still want to be your friend" And now it hurts whenever we hug before we separate if I am walking home and he is staying after school, because I had the habit of giving him a kiss and telling him that I loved him, but now i can't do that. Because we are just friends now. It hurts. And everytime that I am around him I hold in all the tears that I feel like crying out and just smile. So sorry for being really inactive on here, it is just that i am super busy with school at the moment but I will be posting a lot more during x-mas break, and I also had been really depressed lately. I keep getting bullied and getting a lot of crap just for being myself, in the mean time around break and knowing that my grades are definitely good (3.8 GPA atm) then I will put up some pictures up on my modeling page. It is just math that sucks for me, lol. Horrible at it and since I am from America I take this class that is pretty much integrated math, all math but small bits and are nowhere near pre-algebra or algebra. But I am a freshman so I guess that it is ok.
And did you know that i ma 15 now?
Next year it will be legal for me to drive a car :)
Just would have to get the driving lessons and license.
I hate myself a lot and yeah it is just because I see so many other people that have it better than I do in life. They look better, feel better, make better decisions, have better friends and family, everything. I just wanted to show people that there are other people that hate themselves out there so be careful before you go and rub it in someone else's face that they have it better than someone else, because that just hurts. A lot. And I would do anything to make things better for myself but unfortunately that is out of my own reach and there is nothing that I can do.
