I wont forget those times we spent cutting our silhouettes, waking up nights again, I'm afraid because I’m open and undone.
I wont forget those things you said, a stab to the heart and head, killing w/out an end
I'm afraid because..
Breathless, by Aiden
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25 / Female / Indiana, United States
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Dec 30, 2019
Last online:
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About Me
I'm always upfront about being trans online, I use neopronouns like fae/faer, but prefer they/them. I'm also non-dysphoric (don't experience gender dysphoria)! I went to therapy for 2 or 3 years for severe depression, anxiety, OCD, Other Specified Dissociative Disorder, and trans stuff.
My psychologist, and several other therapists, were also in total support of self-diagnosis of most things (some things you need an outside, expert eye for) and practice self-dxxing themselves.
I'm lucky my experience with therapy was so cool, not everyone is as lucky.
I go to a college full of a lot of racists, queerphobes, misogynists, and very few interesting people. The few interesting people have already gotten out and moved away.
I don't fully fit any label, but I've always liked the phrase, "I'm so goth I was born black". However, I've been in the emo community for years now and always come back to it. Plus I have a very Punk mindset and set of beliefs.
I do actually practice witchcraft, and I practice hexing and baneful magic. I'm not Wiccan nor do I follow the Wiccan reed. I've practiced for about 9 years now.
I love anime, zombies, writing, fanfiction, and music.
And I hate when people complain about "posers".
Generally, I hate when people call othersubcultures "posers", like how many in the emo community are calling E-boys and E-girls posers, then turn around and whine endlessly about how other subcultures call THEM posers. Hypocritical and elitist.
Favourite Music
Anna Blue
Pig Destroyer
My Dying Bride
In this moment
Rage Against The Machine
Black Veil Brides
Get Scared
Pagan Fury
Ghost Town
Blackbriar
My Chemical Romance
BABYMETAL
Andy Black
Fall Out Boy
Green Day
Icon For Hire
IC3PEAK
Steven Universe songs
Disney songs
Bring Me The Horizon
Grave Pleasures
The Enigma TNG
Dj-Jo
Slapshock
The Casualties
Nightwish
Monsta
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Movies: Beetlejuice, The Craft, Edward Scissorhands, Legion of the Black, A Christmas Horror Story, literally almost every zombie movie, The Birds by Alfred Hitchcock, Resident Evil (mostly the animated ones), 30 days of night, Black Panther, Birds of Prey.
Shows: Pose, The Addams Family (Original), Ghost Whisperer.
Almost anything dealing with witches, zombies, natural disasters, and stuff like that. Over the years I've watched too many anime series to count, lost track after 300. My faves were Is this a zombie?, Jojo's bizarre adventure, Toriko, Sailor Moon (live-action series too), Cardcaptor Sakura, Baki the grappler, Fist of the North Star, Inuyasha, Hajime no Ippo, Dirty Pair, etc.
Archangel Gabriel, I resort to your aid and in my faith offer this light {a candle} which shall burn every day for the next week. Comfort me in difficulties and tho lodging in the house of our savior, intercede for me and my family that we will be able to hold God close to our hearts and be provided for in all of our necessities. I beseech you to have infinite pity in regard to the favors that I ask of you (I ask that our path to Canada be cleared, that our student visas get expedited so that we have them in time for school next month, that the school automatically rewards us with more than enough funds in grants and scholarships to attend, that we all find lodging on our respective campuses' dorms, and that our studies go so well that we are asked to attend again. I also pray that our applications to anything we do go through, especially our applications for dual citizenship in Canada so that my entire family may live here and find very good, well-paying jobs that will pay us more than enough for the lifestyle that we're used to. Let all good things come to me, and may I always be shown and know where to stand so that fortune always comes my way) that I may be able to overcome all difficulties that the enemy or world may set before me. Thank you."
Say 3 'Hail Marys': "Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed are thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now until the hour of our death. Amen"
Say 3 "Our Fathers": Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us of our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, forever and ever, amen."
Say 3 "Glory Be's": Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit as it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be world without end. Amen."
I just realized that I'm on page 75 of my book and the main love interests are just now getting together, it's only day 10 of the apocalypse, and I have several more chapters to write that will move the time forward by only a couple of weeks. I need a time-skip in here, these people must be exhausted from the drama of the past week.
POWERFUL PROTECTION SPELL/PRAYER/SONG TO SAY/SING BEFORE INVOKING ANYTHING OR DOING SPELLWORK
-King Soon (kingsoon4774)
Protection Protection
I declare protection
Against all entities who are against my perfection.
Any hiding within, you are now ejected.
Any energy in the wrong, you are now corrected.
Protection Protection
I declare protection
I call upon the powers of my heavenly sections.
I declare myself cloaked, to be unseen by the unseen.
I declare myself safe from the unclean.
I declare a shield around me that can't be penetrated by anything.
Protection Protection
I declare protection
Anything that tries to penetrate it gets instant rejection.
I declare it reflected back to its source
A quadruple dose of its infection.
Protection Protection
I declare protection
And it is so because of my I AM presence.
I'm not out at college, I sort of wish I was. If I was, I wouldn't have had to force myself to not react as a girl told me how she thinks LGBTQ acceptance and education is a "cult", then say she's ~totally~ not against us so long as she can fetishize us and watch/read porn of us. Other than that? We're a "cult". Not to mention all the slurs she managed to use in a short period of time, ugh
It's bittersweet that I finally remember what being publicly embarrassed by your parents feels like. Today, my dad noticed that a guy serving our table during a family outing was flirting with me, something I had noticed too and didn't mind at all, but whenever dad sees someone flirting with us he takes it upon himself to publicly announce it and point it out to the surrounding area. I don't know why he does this, he's always been weird about romance and dating and all of that stuff, he used to say, in all seriousness, that he would choose our spouses for us. Only today do I remember how much I hate these habits of his
