Jul 23 2016, 08:48 AM

Dyed the front of my hair blue!! Does it look good? ^~^

Apr 24 2016, 07:20 PM

Sometimes I think about who I should believe The people who are dead or the people who are free Sometimes I hear them as they whisper to me I try to stay awake so I won't die in my sleep And I was quick to take a second look through The window on the door of the operating room And the adrenaline, it threw my eyes To the table on the floor where the patients lie I saw his face and I could not speak As the anesthetic kissed his cheek I felt my lips go cold and my limbs go weak Because the body on the table where the patients die was me It was me Give me back my oxygen mask Cause I don't want to feel the walls of my heart collapse So put me under I would sooner die on this table Than face what causes me to be so unstable [The Art Of Anesthesia- SayWeCanFly]

Apr 15 2016, 06:00 AM

Story "Stories have been told that this is true other than a legend. Yet this story isn't a true experience, its still based on other stories." It was a normal afternoon I'm here in my house Doing my usual routine Watch Tv, write in my journal Anything that gets my mind off of things All of a sudden Someone knocks on my door I get confused yet nervous I head to the front of the door I look through the peephole A little girl stood outside She had a hood over her head And at the same time Her bangs were over her face Shivers crawl up my spine I didn't hesistate to open the door But I only left a crack only revealing my face "May I help you?" I asked Her head tilted up only an inch "Can I come in?" she replied I looked at her with concern I asked myself ""She's only little. Why did she ask me that? Where's her parents?" Before I could ask, I saw her posture Nervous and scared She kept moving her fingers She was keeping something "Where's your parents? I asked She ignored my question "Please help me. Please let me in" she requested I didn't quite understand why she kept asking me that I stared at her with silence I couldn't seem to take my eyes off of her Something buzzed in me Controlling me and my thoughts I wanted to open the door for her I took a step back Not focusing on what I was doing I slowly opened the door Mostly accepting her invitation After she took a step into my house I came back to my senses I shook and scared to know what to do next "I'm sorry. I can't help" I said nervously And slowly closed the door As the door was fully closed I couldn't dare to look out again A little bit after I had bravery to look through the peephole No figure was there My heart went back to its natural beat I was relieved to know that she was gone Was she one of them? Was it reality? Is she real? The Blacked Eyed Children

Apr 10 2016, 07:48 AM

Fake Friendship "I hate you" "I never liked you from the beginning".. Why would you say that and how can I believe that from all of the things you did for me?? Why did you sit by me whenever I go on the bus first?? Why did you give me a drawing from out of the blue of my favorite anime?? Why did you show up to my 16th birthday party and gave me gifts?? Why are you always around me whenever I'm with my friends?? Why would you invite me to walk with you to the woods after school?? And the one thing that I want to know the most is out of all of the girls that asked you, why did you choose me to go to the winter dance with you??? Was that fake too or was that just for my pleasure?? You don't know how much it hurts to hear you laugh with others because I'm trying to make you believe that I'm okay but its a pain to even smile at my own freakin friends. You're around the friends that I freakin introduced you to but now whenever you're around them, I can't even go near them until you leave.. Why did you have to do this to me?? Just because I'm annoying??? There's going to be more people that are "annoying" in your life so why am I the one to be shut out?? Not just that, how am I suppose to know saying "I love all of you" would affect them.. I DIDN'T!! You told me that even if a part of you was gone, I would forget about you and not talk to you.. I wouldn't have never said that if you didn't tell me that!! You even know that I don't know anything at all about them because I'm a Christian. I learn about everything related to God and sins, THAT'S IT!! NOTHING ELSE!!! I care about you!! For saying it was a fake friendship, it's not the friendship that was fake. It was you! I had the right of thinking all of it was real because of how you were acting throughout the whole thing. I keep freakin woke up crying and I'm tired of it already!! You know I'm suicidal, I've told you before. Have you seen my wrists??? You were the reason I stopped... What am I suppose to do now?? You were one out of 3 people that I trusted the most and now I can't even trust anyone when they tell me "it's going to be okay" or "you'll move on". The one thing that I didn't do when we were friends was lie to you. I never lied throughout that whole friendship. I didn't even lie about who I was. I didn't lie about anything because I knew that I can tell you the truth, but yet it hits me in the face when you say that to me... I remember even the very little things what you wouldn't have thought I remembered. "I entered your life as a story and now I'm leaving as a legend in your life" I remember that!! That was how much this friendship meant to me!!... I don't know what to do other than be alone and shut everyone out because I don't want to get hurt again... Why?... Why did you do this to me??.... (J) Amnesia- 5 SoS

Mar 24 2016, 04:39 AM

It hurts so much to hear one of your best friends cry other the phone :(. It makes me want to hug them even more than you do right now...

Feb 28 2016, 10:20 PM

I want to forgive you... but aren't you going to do the same thing all over again?.. I've given you chance by chance by chance for the same stupid things and i actually thought that you changed my thoughts of her of changing.. now I feel so stupid for believing that. Haha... you're so clever.. making me believe things that aren't even true.. your excuses for everything.... Didnt think i would figure that out?... I get news about you as fast as you think.... I don't know what to believe anymore... I don't what this friendship to be about lies anymore.. I don't want to doubt everything that you say to me..... you told me you would change her ways but yet, it just seems like you're just the way she was back then... tell me the truth this one time.. Why did you to it?.. Why did she join in?... How will I know what you say is the truth now?...

Feb 26 2016, 04:20 AM

I live in a place of lies. No truth is spoken by the ones I trust the most. When can I actually someone that wouldn't give me pain? My household isn't even a place that I can be myself. Everywhere I go, I feel guilt. I cry just to let everything get to me. Everyone makes me mad everyday with the little things they say... My depression cuts deeper... My anxiety grows.. I don't know what to feel anymore other than the scars on my skin..

Feb 24 2016, 04:35 AM

Other than demons I'm just a monster inside I have no place anywhere I am yes, I'm energetic, it doesn't mean I'm always happy yes, I get compliments, it doesn't mean I'm perfect I have nothing Anyone that I once trusted stabbed me in the back I trust not many people Only the friends that are close to me But theres always the one person that I trust anyways even when they hurt me the most. What's wrong with me? Why do I do this all of the time? Unanswered questions should just stay unanswered for me I guess