The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
Your So Last Summer, by Taking Back Sunday
Torie [Leone]
31 / Female / , United States
Bisexual / Married
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About Me
Madina Lake happens to be my life. They are the best band to ever exsist and some of the best people. Their music is the most beautiful thing to ever be made. The lyrics make you want to laugh and cry, they tell heartbreak, death, and the reality of love. They are real down to earth people and not just rockstars. They appreciate their fans. They put the feelings that I can't explain into words. Their music helps me cope with any situation and it will always be their for me and I don't have to worry about it leaving. No one can take my music away from me. It's amazing how whenever I see them or hear Nathan's voice my heart stops beating and I can't breathe. It's amazing. Everything about them is so perfect.<3 February 12th, 2008
The best night of my life so far. The night of the Aiden, World By Storm Tour, at The New Oasis, in Reno, NV. The opening bands were Farewell To Freeway, Schoolyard Heroes, and Enter Shikari. When Madina Lake came on stage I wish time had froze.
Carlie. She is my bestest friend in the whole entire world. I am INSANELY jealous of her big hair! [Or I used to be!] I love her more then anything we are OBSESSED with the Leone twins. Matthew is hers and Nathan is mine. Carlie wants me to STOP putting myself into situations where I know I'm going to get hurt. She's helping a little. & trying to distract me from falling for Norbert AGAIN! We have been through everything together. We talk about everything. & have no secrets from eachother. I'm usually with her all the time or she's with me. Her mom is like my mom. We are technically sisters. We were meant to be together. I know that sounds cheesy but our parents went to school together and her moms best friend dated my dad soo.. anyways we started being friends in 4th grade and ever since hen we have been mostly imseperatable except for last year when we went our seperate ways.. I went to Lauren first.. then she went to Kirsten.. and no matter when we fight we always make up. anyways. We have been through hell and back together and thats all that matters. ILOVEYOU CARLIE JANNEE BELLETICH!
From Them, Through Us, To You (2007)
Lyrics Here I Stand
My hands shake cause today,
i know you're gonna break my heart and,
my life without you in it
is a life thats not worth living.
i'll be strong but i wish i was someone else,
anyone but me tonight
here i stand, all alone,tonight
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe
without you, in my life,
i wish i was anyone but me.
so I'll start to pretend I'm ok
but you should know by now that
my life is smoke and mirrors,
the one thing is crystal clear
that i'm the one wishing i was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight
here i stand (here i stand)
all alone, (here i stand)
tonight (here i stand)
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe (here i stand)
without you, (here i stand)
in my life, (here i stand)
i wish i was anyone but me.
(Where do we go?) (Where do we go?)
inside i start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
and i'll pretend I'm holding on (Where do we go?)
so i guess i'll bleed in silence.(In silence)
i guess i'll bleed in silence.
here i stand (here i stand)
all alone, (here i stand)
tonight (here i stand)
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe (here i stand)
without you, (here i stand)
in my life, (here i stand)
i wish i was anyone but me.
here i stand (here i stand)
all alone, (here i stand)
tonight (here i stand)
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe (here i stand)
without you, (here i stand)
in my life, (here i stand)
i wish i was anyone but me.
In Another Life
I remember our first kiss
The butterflies, I know you felt them too
I can still taste your lips
That night I wrapped up all my love in you
But deep inside I always knew
The sadness around you was deadly
I must hate myself
'Cause I also knew one day you'll destroy me
But there's something I've got to know
(Before we say goodbye)
Will I ever see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)
I remember our first fight
Your skeletons were all up over you
I can still taste that night
When you told me you'd been beat up and abused
You'd hide it all
Bruised mouths don't talk
It's not your fault
It was never your fault
It's an evil world for an innocent girl
It's not your fault
It was never your fault
But there's something I've got to know
(Before we say goodbye)
Will I ever see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)
I'm going to try to be okay
(But I need you to know)
Wherever you are now
(That here you were adored)
You were always great at running away
But you said forever
You promised forever
I forgive you
I've forgiven you
And now I just miss you
I'll always remember you
Go!
Oh, sleep in peace
But there's something I've got to know
(Before we say goodbye)
Will I ever see you again?
(Somewhere in another life)
I'm going to try to be okay
(But I need you to know)
Wherever you are now
(That here you were adored)
Adalia
She wraps her tragic moments tightly around her neck
Then she hangs herself with them as I try to disconnect
Cuz she wants to choke on her life again
Breathing it in like a deadly poison.
She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
And her eyes grow cold as she begs the world to just let her go
But I won't let her go
She lives and breathes in a world that brought her to her knees
And now I'm addicted to her cuz that girl is just like me
And I'm gonna choke on her life again
I'm breathing it in like a deadly poison.
I just want to get through to her,
Before her last breath.
She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
And her eyes grow cold as she begs the world to just let her go
She cries cause she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
And she hides all alone inside the pain and she won't let go
Watching her life pass her by, watching it all through her watering eyes
But I'll be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies until the day she dies.
House Of Cards
It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing i know
About honesty
Is every lie i told
That you believed
I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
Now i can't look you in your eye's
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so i can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But i just can't coz
I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me
No
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
(...)
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
Now Or Never
Too long in the same place
I'm sinking into this town.
I've charmed the same old snakes
I think we gotta get out
Before I break away from me
Cuz this place is my lobotomy.
Imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.
I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.
What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.
I can't contemplate the earth
All while my heads in the sand
Cuz I've been buried alive
So take my bleeding hands
And breathe life into me
Cuz right now I'm suffocating.
So imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.
I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.
What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.
I don't want a life of agony
I won't be another tragedy
And close my eyes while everything burns.
And I won't pretend I don't exist
Invisible until I turn to dust,
Open your eyes we're still alive.
Standing still is criminal
And never lasts forever.
The safest place in life is now,
Today's the day we're breaking out..
I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.
What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.
What are we waiting for?
What are we waiting for?
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.
Pandora
The way you dance it turns me on
But you know that I'm spoken for
The way your sweat drips off your chest
You know that I'm wanting more
The lust, the sex, the heat, this sweat
And nothing else matters
But you and me without your dress.
I already forgot her
You, you have no idea what you do to me
And you, you have no idea what you're doing to me
Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora
The girl I love sits at home and I know that she's lonely
But I'm watching you take off your clothes
You're the star of this moment
The love, the hate, the guilt, my fate
Is hanging in the balance
You, you have no idea what you do to me
Oh you, you don't even care what she means to me
Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora
And by the time that I come home she's already sleeping
Sit on the bed and take off my clothes
My nerves they're shaking
The lust, the sex, the heat, this sweat
Your body is quaking
The love, the hate, the guilt, my fate
Against this temptress
I'm a shame
I'm a shame
Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away
(forever as I throw my life away)
Forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora
Stars
We walk past a dead end street
Atop the hill so we can be alone.
Under the moon it's beautiful.
The stars clear the black of night when Im with you.
And nervously I take your hands
and promise you I'll take you for a ride...
"... and someday we'll have it all, you and me, we're gonna be stars"
Well runaway from everything you hate,
Runaway to everything you've wanted
Take my hand, let's get famous.
We'll runaway from everything you've fought
Runaway to everything you've loved
Take my hand, let's get famous.
Im amazed how things can change.
How the real world can chase our dreams away.
How did you give up so easily?
'Cause Id rather make them bury me... so let's
Runaway from everything you hate,
Runaway to everything you've wanted
Take my hand, let's get famous.
We'll runaway from everything you've fought
Runaway to everything you've loved
Take my hand, let's get famous
Our names in lights across the sky,
It's beautiful and our whole lives
Will be headlines across the whole world...
I can't let you live, you're just a ghost
And I'm feeling sick inside my head.
You won't feel a thing
I'll cover up your eyes as I bury you.
I know I bury this under drowning eyes,
And I'll carry it till the day I die.
We'll runaway from everything you hate,
Runaway to everything you've wanted
Take my hand, let's get famous.
We'll runaway from everything you've fought
Runaway to everything you've loved
Take my hand, let's get famous
River People
I'll take your crystal ball and make this crystal clear,
that I won't stand back and I won't drown right here
I'll never wait, I'll make a million mistakes
but to be content is to be a disgrace
Restless, faceless, you've lost your mind
Faithless, tortured, you've lost your mind
They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones
If you let them, they won't let go
They have no hope
They have no soul
If you let them then they'll take yours
You think it feels better on the other side
'cause their grass is green and your grass is diseased
every day drowns in lethargy
but to be content is to burn your wings
Faithless, tortured, you've lost your mind
They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones
If you let them, they won't let go
They have no hope
They have no soul
If you let them then they'll take yours
When you die you want the world
To remember you for who you really are
And when you die you want
to love yourself cause you'll be all alone
They crawl in your head
They dig in your bones
If you let them, they won't let go
They have no hope
They have no soul
If you let them then they'll take yours
It's all in your head
Don't fear the unknown
'Cause you'll let the unknown take control
So let yourself go
And let yourself grow
Don't you let 'em dig you a hole
Restless, faithless, you've lost your mind
Faithless, tortured, you've lost your mind
One Last Kiss
She looked at me, her eyes were watering
That's when I knew that this was about to end
Frozen in that moment, time was standing still
And I could feel my heart sinking, fragile
Goodbye, she said
I went and found somebody new
But I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love, you're giving me up?
You walked away and I could hardly breathe
I turned around and fell down to my knees
I'm shivering as the truth is settling
Her tomorrow has nothing to do with you
I knew someday that you'd find someone else's lips
But before you go
Could you just leave me one last kiss?
Cause I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love, you're giving me up?
And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cause I'm all alone this time
Cause I'm all alone this time
I'm all alone this time
I remember when you were falling
And I was there just holding onto you
And I'll remember all those
Scars I wear that you carved in me
I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love is giving me up.
And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cause I'm all alone this time
Cause I'm all alone this time
I'm all alone this time
Me Vs. The World
Sometimes I try not to hate myself
For everything I never said
When you were here
And so I'm burning up photographs
Of what was a perfect past
'Cause I'm still here
But I'm barely holding on
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here
It's so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
So I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased
'Cause everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
'Cause I'm barely holding on
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here
I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference between
Me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
Has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song?
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
That never cared at all
That I need you here
Morning Sadness
Cut my eyes on visions of you
Memories aren't clear
I lost touch with the boy I knew
While you were still here
Have you met your god?
Does he know I'm in pain?
Does he even have any plans
For me to see you again?
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
Damage done by a lost loved one
You can never forget
Questioning my faith in God
I know evil exists
So I look past the sky
It's where we're going tonight
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
On a mission to find her in heaven
Maybe we'll get to sleep next to God tonight
There's a razor with my name
It carves my life away
And I'll find out who's real
Right now
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a heart that has suffered
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a mind that is strangled
True Love
If I lost it all in a fireball
Would you be there for me?
If the money's gone and the future falls
Would you walk away?
'Cause my confidence is vanishing
Will you leave me starving here
To wither down and disappear
As you walk away?
Then just let me go, let me live
Just leave me alone
Buried here next to love on my own
I'll never trust, never feel, never love again
With this bitter taste in mind
They always say true love is all you need
But when true love is gone can we go on?
They say true love would never leave
But my true love is gone and I can't go on
I'm in the catacombs of a broken heart
Where you used to be when I loved you for
All the reasons that you hated yourself
'Cause you were desperate and pathetic
But just as beautiful to me as the day you left
And I became just a memory
Let me go, let me live
Just leave me to lay buried here next to love on my own
I'll never trust, never feel, never love again
With just this bitter taste in mind
They always say true love is all you need
But when true love is gone can we go on?
They say true love would never leave
But my true love is gone and I can't go on
Now it's 2 A.M. and I'm picturing the way things used to be
But all I see is you looking at him like you used to look at me
They always say true love is all you need
But when true love is gone can we go on?
They say true love would never leave
But my true love is gone and I can't go on
I can't go on
Again & Again
Im frozen as my life is bursting into flames from deep within
I panic, worrying about the future
then the past begins to chase me down
But this time youre the only one around
And Im staring at a photograph
from before I was sick and addicted to you
it was a perfect life
whatever happened to me?
I cant get out of my way
Again and again
cause Im addicted to you
Again and again
Because Im dead without you
How will I live through today?
Im standing at the edge of my life again
Afraid of jumping in
And youre there,
Covering up the holes I went and carved into myself again
Whatever happened to me?
I cant get out of my way
Again and again
cause Im addicted to you
Again and again
Because Im dead without you
How will I live through
I know that I will find a way
Again and again
Again and again
If I was born to lose it all
I wouldve given up
but theres a fire in my heart
I cant put it out
sometimes the futures blurry because
sometimes our perfect lives get lost
inside ourselves
I cant get out of my way
again and again
cause Im addicted to you
again and again
because Im dead without you
how will I live through
I know that I will find a way
again and again
cause Im addicted to you
again and again
because Im dead without you
how will I live through today?
www.wheresadalia.com
Favourite Music
Madina Lake, Aiden, Schoolyard Heroes, Enter Shikari, Atreyu and a lot of other screamo bands!
Favourite Films / TV / Books
love with everything you've got. don't hate those you don't know. say things you don't mean. have fun; don't be too serious. don't regret things. live life to the fullest<3
music is my nirvana. find yours <3
Education / Occupation
Who I'd Like To Meet
Nathan Leone (Again<3)
Matthew Leone
Dan Torelli
Mateo Camargo
Wil Francis
Ban McKenzie
Ryan Donowho
