Joe H
19 / Female / idk, United States
Bisexual / Single & Looking
Member since:
Jul 26, 2022
Last online:
Jul 29, 2023
Current rating: 8.9/10 (15 votes cast)
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About Me
My username is queerelf because people say or refer to me as an "elf" because I like soft- but my name is Joe, I love dying my hair--clearly--, I honestly love every color on earth..except for maybe brown. Idk it's never fit my style much. Uhm I'm 16, August 29th! I'm a Virgo hehe. I am open to chatting, I love making friends so :) if you have any questions, ask me in private messages. I'll respond as quickly as I can. OH! I love kandi making!!! I'm really a happy person, but I am sensitive. It's not easy to hold it in yk
Favourite Music
Honestly anything- I love post hardcore, metalcore, grindcore, deathgrind, cybergrind, nu metal, 2000's rock, I had more but I can't think of it. I love LOVE LOVE Spanish music- I know it really has nothing to do with this, but I still love it. Ask me my favorite bands?
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Who I'd Like To Meet
Lowkey just a best friend or maybe a gf/bf. I really just wanna meet someone with a rainbow personality, they have to be funny too. Clumsy or fancy, I don't mind, just don't try too hard xD. But I'd also like to meet Kurt Cobain :( also Corey Taylor and Joey Jordison, also Jon Davis.
I'm nauseous, broken, and tired. I can't deal with this anymore. The pain is too much for my dumbass sensitive self to handle. I'm not okay, I'm never okay. I do realize none of you actually give a flying fuck about my problems, neither do you understand. You don't have to pretend to, and you can always tell me you're actual opinion. You don't have to lie for me. You don't have to care for me, neither do you have to be friends with me. I'm stressed out. Yes, I've been to countless therapists, shrinks, councils. None work for me. I'm being abused and I'm ready to give up. I'm sick and tired of everyone taking my problems as a joke. I'm human too, I have feelings too, if you're too dumb to care about anyone other than yourself, you wouldn't know. People call me an attention seeker just because I ask for help. They say I make up my problems for attention. I'm done with everyone. I'm sorry my problems are too much for you. Not only does that happen, but I've had so many encounters with toxic ass people on here. I've thought about suicide one too many times. I'm sick of taking all my problems out on my wrists and my body. I'm sick of not being able to show emotion. I'm sorry I disgust you guys because I'm in pain? I'm sorry I'm hurt? I'm sorry I'm not coping the "right way." I don't feel good ever. Everything's wrong with me. I'm sick of being in this stupid ass game of fucked up ways to live your life. I wanna be "happy." I really do want to test whether there is such a thing as a second life. There's only one way to relive your life. If you didn't catch on, I don't know what to tell you. I've been wanting to for forever now. If shit keeps getting worse, I'm not thinking. Whether you like it or not, I'm probably going to.
Hi, this is a message for friends, or the people I really care about.... If I suddenly disappear, and don't respond to messages, or show any sign of being alive, I'm probably dead, or in a coma.... I would always find a way to at least check in here, and I wouldn't abandon my friends, so the thought of anyone I care for thinking I just stopped caring, that thought makes me feel like I'm going to be sick....... So, if I disappear, and show no sign of being alive, just know I love you, and I really care about you, and even if I'm not here, that doesn't mean I abandoned you.
People are just way too damn toxic these days. They get away with it too, and when you call them out, you're the liar. It honestly sucks because now I have major trust issues. Every single day I gotta act like I know what I'm doing. I gotta act like everything's okay because I'm afraid that if I tell someone what's going on, they're going to judge me and I'd be stuck like that forever. It's happened once too many times, it hurts now. And knowing that if I don't decide quick enough, everything could just fucking turn to shreds. If I don't act good enough, or even be good enough, I'm a horrible person. It's hard trying to manage everything that's happening in my life and be okay. I'm a hella reticent person. People don't get that. I do try, I do want to help, I do care, I just can't. I can't keep putting others before myself. I'm sick of hurting myself or even attempting to commit suicide. I'm sick of hiding in regret, anxiety, stress, and unloyalty. I've been through a lot that I can't explain, it hurts. Just notice it, please.
I fucking hate everyone, this world means shit. but ofc only if they're happy. Only if they're happy while I'm not, is it fine? And I'm expected to tolerate everything that's fucking happening. Most of the time, everything is fucking about them. The only time it's about me, is when they want to rant about how much they wanna date me, or how much they hate me. It's fucking delusional. I was finally happy, but then they had to fucking play with me like that, all because they wanted to have something to brag about. And they don't understand "no". They take everything, *everything*, away from me so that either they'll get a chance, or I won't. It fucks with my brain! and the fact they have created over 2 accounts to try to date me or attack me, is fucking insane! I helped my friend, Allen, break up with them and they went on one of their accounts to ask how many people I've dated, I said 10. And after I said that, I started dating Allen. They later told Allen I was cheating on him with 10 fucking people, when it was all in the past. So Allen started messaging me with stuff like "I thought I could trust you, do you even understand how bad this hurts," when it was even my fault. Allen and I are starting over as friends, we're working on getting my friend out of the picture for good, but my friend already started liking Allen again. Allen's the type of person to never say no because they're afraid of hurting them, I'm the same, so I'm trying to help Allen out of it. Off topic. I just hate how everything has to revolve around some unimportant person in my life and I don't get a say or chance in/with anything. I want to just be happy with someone I can enjoy, someone to respect me. But because they wanna be happy, I have to drive away everything I have ever even loved.