No more tears, my heart is dry
I don't laugh and I don't cry
I don't think about you all the time
But when I do I wonder why
One Day(Wankelmut Remix), by Asaf Avidan & the Mojos
Roryyy!
15 / Male / Worcestershire, United Kingdom
Gay/Lesbian / Single
Member since:
Sep 15, 2024
Last online:
Apr 23, 2025
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About Me
I'm more active on TikTok/Instagram than anything [@ryanrosslover.69 on both]
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I love to collect CDs/vinyl
Favourite Music
A FEW BANDS I LIKE
Black Veil Brides, Panic! At The Disco, The Young Veins, Picture Me Broken, Paramore, Flyleaf, I Set My Friends On Fire, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Murderdolls, Wednesday 13, Slipknot, Korn, Limp Bizkit, My Chemical Romance, Mayday Parade, Escape The Fate, Falling In Reverse, Mindless Self Indulgence, T.S.O.L, The Runaways, Green Day, The Venita Affair, Dot Dot Curve, Brokencyde, Plain White T's, Misfits, Snow White's Poison Bite, Death In December, Vendetta Red, Forever The Sickest Kids, The Goo Goo Dolls, SayWeCanFly, Never Shout Never, Fall Out Boy, Blink-182, Sum 41, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Cheerleader Roadkill, Into The Moat, The Used, The Killers, Evanescence, All Time Low, Avenged Sevenfold, Silverstein, 5 Seconds Of Summer, Creeper, Alesana, Asking Alexandria, Sex Pistols, Metallica, Dystopia, Iron Maiden, Avril Lavigne, Ghost, Hey Monday, Mest, Metro Station, Saosin, Palaye Royale, Radiohead, The Cure, The All-American Rejects, The High Court, Andy Black, The Acacia Strain, Alexisonfire, Cute Is What We Aim For, The Used, We The Kings, Tonight Alive (& many more!)
Favourite Films / TV / Books
IT, The Goldfinch, AHS, IANOWT, American Satan, Paradise City, My Little Pony, Carrie, The Conjuring, The Babadook, Chucky, Fear Street, Victorious, Sam and Cat, iCarly, Alvin and the chipmunks, Scream, Miss Peregrine's home for peculiar children, The Purge, Death Note, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Saw, Beetlejuice, Dracula, Mean Girls, SpongeBob SquarePants, American Psycho, Hello Kitty
I went to the psychiatrist on Monday, and I drew Ryan Ross in the waiting room. Some kid ruined him whilst I was talking to the psychiatrist </3
But the psychiatrist and student nurse were super cool, we kept going off topic and talking about piercings, tattoos, music, animals, etc. I got some diagnoses that we've been waiting to get for a while now though.
I went shopping with my mom today instead of school and I got a BUNCH of cool stuff.
We went to a charity shop and I got t-shirt and 5 CDs. (The Beatles, The Cure, Billy Talent, The Offspring, Bowling For Soup). IT ALL CAME TO LIKE £5 FOR ALL OF THAT SO IT WAS A REALLY GREAT DEAL!!
We also went to HMV and I got a Sum 41 CD. They didn't have an album that I have been trying to get for over a year now (they never have it in stock) but my mom found it online for £1 !!
I wish I was a real boy. I wish everyone around me just called me by my name, called me a boy, rather than most people using my dead name and calling me a girl. I wish I could simply get dressed, shower, look at my face, and see the features of a man. I hate my body. I hate my face. It's all too feminine. I hate my voice. Even when I try to deepen it I still sound like a girl. I want to start testosterone, get surgeries, and do everything to make me a man. I have to wait until seventeen to even be referred to a gender affirming clinic for testosterone, and I'm terrified of surgery.
I have an appointment literally like the day after getting lip piercings.
Anyone with lip piercings know if it's hard to talk after getting them pierced? I've heard different things and I NEED to be able to talk. It's for my mental health and medication.
I haven't even gone to school for 10 days in the past year-2 years (a lot of that time was whilst looking for a new school, though), and I don't know if I want to continue. It's illegal where I live to stop education before 18, but it's too much. I don't want to lose my place at the school that I am at now, but at the same time, I wouldn't be too upset about it. Everyone there gets along, but I wouldn't really say I have "friends". I may have to go back into mainstream if I can no longer attend my alternative learning school, but I wouldn't mind seeing some of my closest friends again.