Cause without you im a disaster. And your my ever after. Cause i need to know your answer. I want you to say your gonna stay with me. I die everyday that your away from me. Without You, by My Darkest Days
Hannah
24 / Female / Munich, Germany
Bisexual / In a Relationship
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Feb 07, 2018
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About Me
Ummm...Okay. Hi guys. Not really sure where to begin. I am kind of the most awkward person I know, so yeah, brace yourselves. I would really, really love to have some friends because in this place where I live, I can't really seem to find anyone else like me and I am kind of sick of changing myself. So I guess that's why I joined this site. I am pretty boring, I guess. I like to travel (even though I am way to broke to do it). I love to write poems and when I have the time, I read books and keep a diary. Obviously I watch a lot of TV and music is my life. I started to play bass guitar, in case anyone cares. I guess what really defines me is my keeping of a diary. I suffer from depression an anxiety, as well as anorexia so I am kind of a mess and not that easy to deal with, i guess. That's probably why I don't have many friends, but oh well. I also play tennis. But that's literally the only sport I do. The rest of the time I sit around and do nothing. I am kind of low-key annoying and would really look forward to having some friends that are like me. Anyways thats pretty much it.
Favourite Music
Oh god. Where do I even begin. I mean, music is my life, my escape, the only light in a dark world. Okay. Sorry. Dramatic. I really enjoy most bands. Simple Plan. All Time Low. Bring me the Horizon. Thirty Seconds to Mars. Starset. White Comic. Rammstein. Evanescence. My Chemical Romance. Linkin Park. Pierce the Viel and Sleeping with Sirens are pretty cool too. There are probably a million more, but I only have so much capacity in my brain.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Umm...oh god. I watch wayyy to much Netflix. Obviously I love Thirteen Reasons Why (yes, my name is Hannah, that has nothing to do with it). Family Guy is the shit. I watch a lot of old, sad movies. Girl, Interrupted being one of my favorites. But honestly, I am always open to suggestion.
Thirteen Reasons Why. Anything by Dickens. Really anything that is classic literature. Poetry. Love the book Antigone. That thing has some pretty cool quotes. I actually like to read, I just haven't had time lately. Whoops. Because when you are growing up the world kind of forces you to give up your passions. Okay. Sorry. Reflecting about the universe again.
Education / Occupation
Um...Student. Pretty average one. I want to study English lit or Journalism or something cool. Not sure yet. I have like, two more years to plan for that.
Who I'd Like To Meet
Umm...friends. No just kidding. Umm. I would love to meet the great Emily Dickens. But also like all the band members I love. Really, just kind of people that seem like they can relate and won't judge like most people I know. Because the general memo I get is you are not fun enough, you are too sad to hang out around. And stop being so upset and have fun. So really anyone who gets that it doesn't work that way would be cool. Also someone with emotions. Like sensitive, yeah, that would be cool. Sorry. I have a lot of things that I wish for. Even though I probably don't deserve them.
So I guess here I am. Today. Not that bad I guess, but not super either. I am just kind of sitting here alone and listening to music with no one to talk to. On top of that, things aren't really easy right now. I started cutting myself again and more and more, suicide seems like an option. I don't want to upset my boyfriend on his eighteenth birthday, though and seem selfish by doing this now. but after that, what is stopping me. No one wants me here anyways, no one cares. I am fat and ugly and not cool enough. On top of all that, i checked my weight and realized i gained two pounds, which really didn't make me feel better about myself. I don't know. I am kind of ranting. Things just suck and i hate myself. No one understands. It's always why are you sad just be happy. Well guess what I can't. Maybe if someone cared I could do something fun, or maybe it's just the things the world sees as fun, I don't. I just can't deal with this by myself anymore. I don't know. I just wish someone cared.
