Evelyna Rodriguez
29 / Female / Somewhere in Hell, United States
Bisexual / Engaged
Member since:
Dec 30, 2011
Last online:
Sep 08, 2012
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About Me
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well, what can i say about myself? 16 years of trying to find my place in life. in these 16 years of breathing i've found nothing but lies and empty promises. but i seem to have found a distraction from this temporary world. music is my lifeline, rock is the air that i breathe. deep, meaningful lyrics and poetry help me through it all. being 5'2 it's easy to be forgotten and walked all over. it isn't easy to reach the stars. but with my feet on the ground, and my head in the clouds, i know i'll get there some day. this world is not for me, i've learned that the hard way. but i believe that some day the world will crash in on itself and we'll be left with memories of what used to be. some day we'll find a better place, somewhere beyond compare to this temporary world....
(¯`v´¯) `*.¸.*`
i love . . . kisses . rainbows . guitars . music . pink . bows >skulls . teddy bears . puppies . spiderman texting . pictures . guns . boys . girls . bracelets >colors . skirts . blue . glitter . unicorns bear hugs . internet . candy . black . darkness >blankets . crayons . flowers . hearts strawberries . animals . love . hate . books i. . . .love. . . .you. . . .[ [ ‹3 ] ]
Avenged Sevenfold . Bring me the Horizon . Breathe Carolina . The Used . Slayer . All That Remains . Awolnation . Eyes Set to Kill . Slipknot . Eminem . Atmosphere . Pierce the Veil . Woe is Me . White Rabbits . We Butter the Bread With Butter . Three Days Grace . Breaking Benjamin . System of a Down . Lil Wayne . Suicide Silence . Sick Puppies . Evanescence . Flyleaf . Papa Roach . My Chemical Romance . Metallica . The Medic Droid . Marilyn Manson . Ludo . Five Finger Death Punch . Godsmack . Immortal Technique . Death Cab for Cutie . Disturbed . Cypress Hill . Coheed and Cambria . Chevelle . Bullet for my Valentine . Brokencyde . Attack Attack . Asking Alexandria and many more . . .
*** Bolded = frequently listened to<3'
Favourite Films / TV / Books
I watch anything I feel like watching;D
The Hunger Games Trilogy: - The Hunger Games - Catching Fire - Mockingjay
The Twilight Series: - Twilight - New Moon - Eclipse - Breaking Dawn
Education / Occupation
Options for Youth Class of '14 Soon to be whatever the fxckk I wanna be;D
Who I'd Like To Meet
Oliver Scott Sykes - lead singer of Bring Me The Horizon Andrew Biersack - lead singer of Black Veil Brides Alexia Rodriguez - lead singer of Eyes Set to Kill Lacey Mosely - lead singer of Flyleaf Amy Lynn Lee - lead singer of Evanescence
Losing friends day by day, and I have no control over it.
I have control over the blade that could be slicing my skin,
But I have no control over the one who doesn't let me do so...
He says no, and if I do, there will be consequences...
I need him more than I need a blade,
But I need release, and he's not here...
Can't even go see him when I please...
I'm sooo confused!!!
If he treats me right then I want him,
But then, why should I have to wait for that,
When there's someone that already seems willing?!
. . .
Why do I still hurt for you, when you obviously are never gone, you're never done, not fully...
So why does it feel like we're holding on by a piece of thread?
Why am I still so attached, but you're slipping?
And you don't even care...
Whenever I'm alone, lonely and cold,
Missing your warm and loving embrace,
I think of your smile that warms my heart.
But you're not here...
My heart aches when you're away.
So dependent on your love,
I can't catch my breath when you're gone.
Then you walk my way, I see your smile,
And my heart rushes, trying to catch up to my emotions,
Spinning out of control, making me dizzy,
Until I rest in your arms once more.
Rivers
You taught my heart to love,
Then taught my heart to bleed.
You taught my heart to harden, numb,
My blood to flow,
In a red rushing river,
Drip, drop, dripping to the ground.
Lately all I've been wanting to do is curl up in a ball and rip my guts out until the life bleeds out of me... Nice way to start off, yes? I hate everything lately. My love puts so much stress on me and I feel like I'm not good enough for him, even though I know sometimes it's the other way around...
He says that I should be doing better, even though I'm already doing fine in what I'm doing. I mean, if I'm not failing, that's okay, right? It's not like I'm messing up. I'm just not doing better than everyone else.
He seems to want perfection, and I'm nowhere close to that. How do I achieve the impossible? This is what I really want; to get him back, to make him want me enough to take me back...
If someone's already more than halfway out the door, does it mean that you're a loser if you just give up? Is that what's meant to be? Or am I supposed to keep pushing harder, trying and trying until I finally reach my goal?...
I miss when life was easier; When the most difficult decision was what flavor popsicle I wanted, or what color crayon to color the sky... Today, my sky is gray...
All I want to do is get away for a while... Lately I've been in a killing mood. I want to torture someone, let them see how I'm feeling inside... Then maybe SOMEONE will HALF understand me...
Come back Micheal, you're hurting us both, bringing unnecessary misery...
"Here you are down on your knees again trying to find air to breathe again And only surrender will help you now I love you please see and believe again"
-Flyleaf, Again