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Mathea Davis-Manwell
30 / Female / Gatineau, Quebec, Canada
Straight / Single
Member since: Feb 01, 2010
Last online: Jun 08, 2012

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Bio

About Me

i am a 15 year old girl...

i write songs and poems

i like to skatboard,

snowboard,

ski,

play video games,

i play guitar,

drums, and keyboard,

i also sing...

my haircolor is black(blue-tint)...

my eye color is bright blue...

my best features are my eyes, and my hair...

my favorite colors are black and red...

my msn that i am on the most is

i hate school, and people that are stereotypes, and people that play you and use you, when they pretend to care. i am emo and i am judged for that, but i dont care, all i have left is my mom and my sister, cause the rest of my family excluded us because of something that happened to me, and they say that i was making it up just to get attention, and that if it was true, that i probably deserved it. so at this age going through friends, first crushes, first kisses, first heartbreak, first love, and all the stuff to do with that and school, and also puberty crisis, i needed my family, and i needed them to help me along, because i was suffering from what had happened, and they turned their backs on me when i needed them the most, saying that i was untrustworthy, and that i should be locked up like my father was, and that my mom should have given me away at birth cause i was turning out to be like my father. i have 5 cousins, the oldest, which is a female, used to be in figure skating, now she's a cop, she has 2 younger brothers, which the youngest is now 24, anyways they both played hockey, and now the older one is a firefighter, and the younger one does construction. my then its graham, he is also like my sister and me, he was rejected from the family, even from his father because he is bisexual, he is now going to go over the edge with depression he is also 24, then my younger cousin she is a year younger then me, she already has been offered a scholar ship for playing basketball when she is older, at ottawa university, so you see my sister graham, and i are different from the rest. we dont "fit in". and now they like to criticize me for being emo, and goth, but they dont seem to understand that if they wouldve helped me instead of putting the blame on me for being molested and everything, maybe i wouldnt be the way i am. so you see thats only what has happened in the past year, the rest of my life has been that bad and sometimes worse, and they wonder why ive tried to kill myself so many times, i hate the way my life has been, and its not any better cause no one at my school is emo, so i have no one to talk to or relate to. sorry if im boring you.

my favorite sayings are:

*Cut my wrists and black my eyes, so I can fall asleep tonight...

*Turn my world from disaster Make my heart start beating faster Ask the question, here's the answer I need you now and I can't stand this

*The truth is you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

*I can't sleep anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep

*"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else in return."

*"Don't say you love me unless you really mean it, cause I might do something crazy like believe it."

those razors hurt, i can't feel fine my love here tonight

*It's in the blood, It's in the blood. I met my love before I was born. He wanted love, I taste of blood. He bit my lip, and drank my war, from years before, from years before.

*Take me into your dark dream and scream so loud this place fills with misery, suffer the kiss, and take me out alive.

*do you know what it feels like being alone?ill find someone new,swing swing from the tables of my heart

*I close my eyes, I hide my fears, The fear of loss in coming years. The helpless cry of losing out, On years to come, without a doubt.

*And truth be told I miss you And truth be told I'm lying When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell

*So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me. I'm not worth any tears.

*Believe the news im gone for good

*It's what kills me slowly, you kill me slowly with the way i know you wont come back and i regret everything i SAID

*The deeper you cut, The deeper I hurt

*Mom and dad had no right she screams As the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

*Everyday it's still the same dull knife, stab it through and justify your pride

*A wedding of the damned This razor cuts the pain right out, we're bound until the end My Love

*You've got a mouth like a razorblade, it cuts so deep. So kiss my wrists and my neck, give me eternal sleep

*Here I am, broken again, but then you show me, you're wearing the scars that save. How can you see me, as something so lovely. Cause it's killing me that i am to blame.

*I Don't care what they say im inlove with you they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth my heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing oohh you cut me open and I keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love

*I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger, held in my chest, uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears, nothing to gain, everything to fear

*I Tried So Hard, And That So Far, But In The End It Doesnt Even Matter

*And we sing, sing with out a reason to never fall in love. To never fall in love again

*It's just another night, another dream that's all about you.

*And today meant nothing, because youre gone. And I swear that this meant everything to me, because my hearts not home.

*If I died right now, you'd never be the same...and would you be in pain?

*'Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute

*"My Heart it beats.....beats for only you..." "Please don't go....Please don't fade away"

*I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, That the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had

*Do you feel like a man, when you push her around? Do you feel better now she falls to the ground?

*so deep that it didnt even bleed and catch me off guard red handed

*And when you know there's nothing left You're gonna run like all the rest Pack your bags and turn your back on all the friends you had left.

*you say you're getting closer to that chance of suicide tearing at your throat you won't let it die left me here for all these days and ripped apart my pride

*This love is bittersweet. It's always incomplete. Right now you're killing me (ohhh-oh) 'Cause everything that you say, and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed and I'm the one that you blame

*Sometimes I wonder why I'm still waiting Sometimes I'm shaking that's how you make me Sometimes I question why I'm still here Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

*These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase

*And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now

*It's what kills me slowly, you kill me slowly with the way i know you wont come back and i regret everything i SAID

*Take me into your dark dream and scream so loud this place fills with misery, suffer the kiss, and take me out alive

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger, held in my chest, uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears, nothing to gain, everything to fear

*It's just another night, another dream that's all about you.

*If I died right now, you'd never be the same...and would you be in pain?

*'Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute

*"My Heart it beats.....beats for only you..." "Please don't go....Please don't fade away"

*This love is bittersweet. It's always incomplete. Right now you're killing me (ohhh-oh) 'Cause everything that you say, and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed and I'm the one that you blame

*Sometimes I wonder why I'm still waiting Sometimes I'm shaking that's how you make me Sometimes I question why I'm still here Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

*These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
And i also like the lyrics to these 2 songs for some reason
Lyrics to True Colours :
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Ohhhh
I can't remember
When I last saw you laugh
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colours
Shining through
See your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours, true colours
Are beautiful like a rainbow

I see your True colours shining through
See your true colours
Thats why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
Your true colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Ohhhhhhh

Lyrics to When It Was Me :
Ooh, no
Yeah, yeah

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5''
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadillac truck
So the hell what
Is so special about that
She used to model, she's done some acting
So she weighs a buck 0-5
And I guess she's alright if perfection's what you like

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything, I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it..was..me.

And now you don't feel the same
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name
You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes
Now you don't care I'm alive
How did we let the fire die

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it..was..

(Me) That made you smile
(Me) That made you laugh
Me, that makes you happier than you had ever been, oh
(Me) That was your world
(Me) Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be (I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it..was..me

When it was me
When it was me
When it was me
I can�t believe I hung around with you
All this time
You drove me crazy with your ocd
Girl your out of your mind
I�m counting on ufo�s to beam me up
I just don�t know
How long I can take this shit
I�m over it girl you gotta go

It�s over were over
Just like in crimson and clover
Were sinking and I�m thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid
It�s the end ex girlfriend
I don�t care what you think of me now
So long your gone
This is the break up song

One more thing before you go
Would you please give me my records back
My bloody valentine, the pixies, cheap trick and back in black
You can keep the dog we bought
But you can�t go near the standard bar
Don�t hang around
Don�t call my friends
They wont know who you are

Its over we�re over
Just like in crimson and clover
Were sinking and I�m thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid
It�s the end ex girlfriend
I don�t care what you think of me now
So long your gone
This is the break up song

So long your gone
This is the break up song

Its over we�re over
Just like in crimson and clover
Were sinking and I�m thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid
It�s the end ex girlfriend
I don�t care what you think of me now
So long your gone
This is the break up song

So long your gone
This is the break up song [x3]

THIS IS THE BREAKUP SONG
Poisoning a drink
Bleeding in a sink
Choking with a link
Killing with a stink
Just your mother's
HOE

Bleeding in a sink
Poisoning a drink
Burning up
My sweet Clementine

Trampling a shrink
Bleeding in a sink
Halleluiah wink
Getting on the brink
Just your mother's
HOE

Halleluiah wink
Murdering a shrink
Burning up

Oh my sweet revenge
Will be yours
for the taking
It's in the making,
baby
a-a-a-a-h

My sweet revenge
Will be yours
for the taking
It's in the making,
baby
a-a-a-a-h

Killing with stink
Bleeding in a sink
Poisoning a drink
Getting on the brink
Just your mother's
HOE

Bleeding in a sink
Trampling a shrink
Burning up
My sweet Clementine

Poisoning a drink
Bleeding in a sink
Choking with a link
Killing with a stink
Just your mother's
HOE

Poisoning a drink
Bleeding in a sink
Burning up

My sweet revenge
Will be yours
for the taking
It's in the making,
baby
a-a-a-a-h

My sweet revenge
Will be yours for the taking
It's in the making
baby
a-a-a-a-hooo......

I saw her laugh
Then she said,
"Go away"

I saw her laugh
Then she said, then she said,
"Go away, away"

hoooooo...... ahhhh......ohhhhh......

My sweet revenge
Will be yours
for the taking
It's in the making,
baby
a-a-a-a-h

My sweet revenge
Will be yours it's in the making
It's in the taking,
making,
baking,
taking,
faking
HOE

My sweet Clementine
HOE

Should've been, could've been,
Would've been, would've been you

Should've been, could've been
Would've been, could've been YOU

Favourite Music

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alesana
alexisonfire
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alice in chains
all that remains
amon amarth
arch enemy
attack, attack
avenged sevenfold
black veil brides
blood stain child
blessthefall
bring me the horizon
brokencyde
dead poetic
dimmu borgir
dio
dying fetus
escape the fate
eyes set to kill
fear before
for the fallen dreams
funeral for a friend
haste the day
hopes die last
ice nine kills
in flames
inhale, exhale
inked in blood
i set my friends on fire
it dies today
kill hannah
lamb of god
megadeth
metallica
misery signals
mushroom head
my hero is me
nirvana
pantera
paramore
rise against
scream hello
skid row
slipknot
suicide silence
swollen members
tenacious d
the chariot
the misfits
these green eyes
the used
vanna
we came as romans

Favourite Films / TV / Books

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Armageddon
Bam
Child's Play
Child's Play 2
Child's Play 3
Chucky's Bride
Criss Angel Mind Freak
Death Race
Dog The Bounty Hunter
Dudeons
Family Guy
Fear
Half-Pipe
House
Idol Hands
Intervention
Jackass
Jeepers Creepers
Jeepers Creepers 2
Life Of Suicide
Much Music (I do love music)
Robot Chicken
The Devils Rejects
The Seed Of Chucky
The Simpsons
Van Wilder
ZombieLand