The white snow out your window. As astory, this is how it goes.i was alone. on myown. then a stranger came up and took me home. i see that i'm different. i hate4 it wish i could change it. I Told You, by The memory
Mathea Davis-Manwell
30 / Female / Gatineau, Quebec, Canada
Straight / Single
Member since:
Feb 01, 2010
Last online:
Jun 08, 2012
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About Me
i am a 15 year old girl...
i write songs and poems
i like to skatboard,
snowboard,
ski,
play video games,
i play guitar,
drums, and keyboard,
i also sing...
my haircolor is black(blue-tint)...
my eye color is bright blue...
my best features are my eyes, and my hair...
my favorite colors are black and red...
my msn that i am on the most is
ihate school, and people that are stereotypes, and people that play you and use you, when they pretend to care.i am emo and i am judged for that, but i dont care, all i have left is my mom and my sister, cause the rest of my family excluded us because of something that happened to me, and they say that i was making it up just to get attention, and that if it was true, that i probably deserved it. so at this age going through friends, first crushes, first kisses, first heartbreak, first love, and all the stuff to do with that and school, and also puberty crisis, i needed my family, and i needed them to help me along, because i was suffering from what had happened, and they turned their backs on me when i needed them the most, saying that i was untrustworthy, and that i should be locked up like my father was, and that my mom should have given me away at birth cause i was turning out to be like my father. i have 5 cousins, the oldest, which is a female, used to be in figure skating, now she's a cop, she has 2 younger brothers, which the youngest is now 24, anyways they both played hockey, and now the older one is a firefighter, and the younger one does construction. my then its graham, he is also like my sister and me, he was rejected from the family, even from his father because he is bisexual, he is now going to go over the edge with depression he is also 24, then my younger cousin she is a year younger then me, she already has been offered a scholar ship for playing basketball when she is older, at ottawa university, so you see my sister graham, and i are different from the rest. we dont "fit in". and now they like to criticize me for being emo, and goth, but they dont seem to understand that if they wouldve helped me instead of putting the blame on me for being molested and everything, maybe i wouldnt be the way i am. so you see thats only what has happened in the past year, the rest of my life has been that bad and sometimes worse, and they wonder why ive tried to kill myself so many times, i hate the way my life has been, and its not any better cause no one at my school is emo, so i have no one to talk to or relate to. sorry if im boring you.
my favorite sayings are:
*Cut my wrists and black my eyes, so I can fall asleep tonight...
*Turn my world from disaster Make my heart start beating faster Ask the question, here's the answer I need you now and I can't stand this
*The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
*I can't sleep anymore since you left I miss you singing me to sleep I can't wake anymore in your arms I miss you singing me to sleep
*"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else in return."
*"Don't say you love me unless you really mean it, cause I might do something crazy like believe it."
those razors hurt, i can't feel fine my love here tonight
*It's in the blood, It's in the blood. I met my love before I was born. He wanted love, I taste of blood. He bit my lip, and drank my war, from years before, from years before.
*Take me into your dark dream and scream so loud this place fills with misery, suffer the kiss, and take me out alive.
*do you know what it feels like being alone?ill find someone new,swing swing from the tables of my heart
*I close my eyes, I hide my fears, The fear of loss in coming years. The helpless cry of losing out, On years to come, without a doubt.
*And truth be told I miss you And truth be told I'm lying When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell
*So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me. I'm not worth any tears.
*Believe the news im gone for good
*It's what kills me slowly, you kill me slowly with the way i know you wont come back and i regret everything i SAID
*The deeper you cut, The deeper I hurt
*Mom and dad had no right she screams As the anger runs down both of her cheeks.
*Everyday it's still the same dull knife, stab it through and justify your pride
*A wedding of the damned This razor cuts the pain right out, we're bound until the end My Love
*You've got a mouth like a razorblade, it cuts so deep. So kiss my wrists and my neck, give me eternal sleep
*Here I am, broken again, but then you show me, you're wearing the scars that save. How can you see me, as something so lovely. Cause it's killing me that i am to blame.
*I Don't care what they say im inlove with you they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth my heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing oohh you cut me open and I keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love
*I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger, held in my chest, uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears, nothing to gain, everything to fear
*I Tried So Hard, And That So Far, But In The End It Doesnt Even Matter
*And we sing, sing with out a reason to never fall in love. To never fall in love again
*It's just another night, another dream that's all about you.
*And today meant nothing, because youre gone. And I swear that this meant everything to me, because my hearts not home.
*If I died right now, you'd never be the same...and would you be in pain?
*'Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute
*"My Heart it beats.....beats for only you..." "Please don't go....Please don't fade away"
*I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, That the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had
*Do you feel like a man, when you push her around? Do you feel better now she falls to the ground?
*so deep that it didnt even bleed and catch me off guard red handed
*And when you know there's nothing left You're gonna run like all the rest Pack your bags and turn your back on all the friends you had left.
*you say you're getting closer to that chance of suicide tearing at your throat you won't let it die left me here for all these days and ripped apart my pride
*This love is bittersweet. It's always incomplete. Right now you're killing me (ohhh-oh) 'Cause everything that you say, and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed and I'm the one that you blame
*Sometimes I wonder why I'm still waiting Sometimes I'm shaking that's how you make me Sometimes I question why I'm still here Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
*These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
*And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now
*It's what kills me slowly, you kill me slowly with the way i know you wont come back and i regret everything i SAID
*Take me into your dark dream and scream so loud this place fills with misery, suffer the kiss, and take me out alive
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger, held in my chest, uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears, nothing to gain, everything to fear
*It's just another night, another dream that's all about you.
*If I died right now, you'd never be the same...and would you be in pain?
*'Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute
*"My Heart it beats.....beats for only you..." "Please don't go....Please don't fade away"
*This love is bittersweet. It's always incomplete. Right now you're killing me (ohhh-oh) 'Cause everything that you say, and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed and I'm the one that you blame
*Sometimes I wonder why I'm still waiting Sometimes I'm shaking that's how you make me Sometimes I question why I'm still here Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
*These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
And i also like the lyrics to these 2 songs for some reason
Lyrics to True Colours : You with the sad eyes Don't be discouraged Oh I realize It's hard to take courage In a world full of people You can lose sight of it all And the darkness there inside you Makes you feel so small
But I see your true colours Shining through I see your true colours That's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colours True colours are beautiful, Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then, And don't be unhappy, can't remember when I last saw you laughing If this world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear You call me up Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours Shining through I see your true colours That's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colours True colours are beautiful, Like a rainbow
Ohhhh I can't remember When I last saw you laugh If this world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear You call me up Because you know I'll be there
And I see your true colours Shining through See your true colours That's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colours, true colours Are beautiful like a rainbow
I see your True colours shining through See your true colours Thats why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colours Your true colours are beautiful, Like a rainbow
Ohhhhhhh
Lyrics to When It Was Me : Ooh, no Yeah, yeah
She's got green eyes and she's 5'5'' Long brown hair all down her back Cadillac truck So the hell what Is so special about that She used to model, she's done some acting So she weighs a buck 0-5 And I guess she's alright if perfection's what you like
Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed I remember way back when you used to look at me that way
Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me) What makes her just everything, I can never be What makes her your every dream and fantasy Because I can remember when it..was..me.
And now you don't feel the same I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes Now you don't care I'm alive How did we let the fire die
Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed I remember way back when you used to look at me that way
What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me) What makes her just everything I can never be What makes her your every dream and fantasy Because I can remember when it..was..
(Me) That made you smile (Me) That made you laugh Me, that makes you happier than you had ever been, oh (Me) That was your world (Me) Your perfect girl Nothing about me has changed That's why I'm here wondering
What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me) What makes her just everything that I can never be (I can never be) What makes her your every dream and fantasy Because I can remember when it was
What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me) What makes her just everything that I can never be What makes her your every dream and fantasy Because I can remember when it..was..me
When it was me When it was me When it was me
I can�t believe I hung around with you All this time You drove me crazy with your ocd Girl your out of your mind I�m counting on ufo�s to beam me up I just don�t know How long I can take this shit I�m over it girl you gotta go
It�s over were over Just like in crimson and clover Were sinking and I�m thinking How the hell did we get so stupid It�s the end ex girlfriend I don�t care what you think of me now So long your gone This is the break up song
One more thing before you go Would you please give me my records back My bloody valentine, the pixies, cheap trick and back in black You can keep the dog we bought But you can�t go near the standard bar Don�t hang around Don�t call my friends They wont know who you are
Its over we�re over Just like in crimson and clover Were sinking and I�m thinking How the hell did we get so stupid It�s the end ex girlfriend I don�t care what you think of me now So long your gone This is the break up song
So long your gone This is the break up song
Its over we�re over Just like in crimson and clover Were sinking and I�m thinking How the hell did we get so stupid It�s the end ex girlfriend I don�t care what you think of me now So long your gone This is the break up song
So long your gone This is the break up song [x3]
THIS IS THE BREAKUP SONG
Poisoning a drink Bleeding in a sink Choking with a link Killing with a stink Just your mother's HOE
Bleeding in a sink Poisoning a drink Burning up My sweet Clementine
Trampling a shrink Bleeding in a sink Halleluiah wink Getting on the brink Just your mother's HOE
Halleluiah wink Murdering a shrink Burning up
Oh my sweet revenge Will be yours for the taking It's in the making, baby a-a-a-a-h
My sweet revenge Will be yours for the taking It's in the making, baby a-a-a-a-h
Killing with stink Bleeding in a sink Poisoning a drink Getting on the brink Just your mother's HOE
Bleeding in a sink Trampling a shrink Burning up My sweet Clementine
Poisoning a drink Bleeding in a sink Choking with a link Killing with a stink Just your mother's HOE
Poisoning a drink Bleeding in a sink Burning up
My sweet revenge Will be yours for the taking It's in the making, baby a-a-a-a-h
My sweet revenge Will be yours for the taking It's in the making baby a-a-a-a-hooo......
I saw her laugh Then she said, "Go away"
I saw her laugh Then she said, then she said, "Go away, away"
hoooooo...... ahhhh......ohhhhh......
My sweet revenge Will be yours for the taking It's in the making, baby a-a-a-a-h
My sweet revenge Will be yours it's in the making It's in the taking, making, baking, taking, faking HOE
My sweet Clementine HOE
Should've been, could've been, Would've been, would've been you
Should've been, could've been Would've been, could've been YOU
Favourite Music
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alesana
alexisonfire
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alice in chains
all that remains
amon amarth
arch enemy
attack, attack
avenged sevenfold
black veil brides
blood stain child
blessthefall
bring me the horizon
brokencyde
dead poetic
dimmu borgir
dio
dying fetus
escape the fate
eyes set to kill
fear before
for the fallen dreams
funeral for a friend
haste the day
hopes die last
ice nine kills
in flames
inhale, exhale
inked in blood
i set my friends on fire
it dies today
kill hannah
lamb of god
megadeth
metallica
misery signals
mushroom head
my hero is me
nirvana
pantera
paramore
rise against
scream hello
skid row
slipknot
suicide silence
swollen members
tenacious d
the chariot
the misfits
these green eyes
the used
vanna
we came as romans
Favourite Films / TV / Books
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Armageddon
Bam
Child's Play
Child's Play 2
Child's Play 3
Chucky's Bride
Criss Angel Mind Freak
Death Race
Dog The Bounty Hunter
Dudeons
Family Guy
Fear
Half-Pipe
House
Idol Hands
Intervention
Jackass
Jeepers Creepers
Jeepers Creepers 2
Life Of Suicide
Much Music (I do love music)
Robot Chicken
The Devils Rejects
The Seed Of Chucky
The Simpsons
Van Wilder
ZombieLand
Education / Occupation
ummmm....still in high school
Who I'd Like To Meet
Well actually i want to meet anyone who wants to meet me
