Jun 04 2013, 12:08 AM

Wow I wasn't wrong... Once again I voice my opinion and give advice but people take it the wrong way and have a go at me :'( I mean sorry for trying to make people feel better about the exam by ssaying to chill out and not stress. I say that and everyone comments saying "Its more than a bit of paper, its you a job blah blah blah" Yea, I know? That's why I also put that it still does obvious matter, but people seem not to care anymore 3

Jun 03 2013, 12:10 PM

Pretty bad that I'm planning out my own life and lifestyle... but sometimes these things need to be done :/ 3

Jun 03 2013, 10:37 AM

I haven't felt this way in ages now ='( I thought it had all gone away but I guess not. Yesterday I got into an argument with a bitch coz she was having a go at my friend and using the past against us and she got me wound up and it drove me crazy. She'd said things like my friends always slag me off and hate when I'm around them and it got to me so much that I even had to ask me best friend if it was true, she said no but it still goes round in my mind now... Also today I was fine until last lesson when I was getting tired so I wasn't quite myself, then my friend said that I was being a crap friend at the time which sent me over the edge, I even walked out she hurt me that much, I made sure I didn't show the pain but as soon as I got outside the classroom, I broke down making me feel like a stupid little baby :'( Honestly though, everything that's happens is all becoming related to what that girl said to me yesterday, somehow in my state of mind it all makes sense and I can't help but feel as if she was right. I feel that no one wants me around most days and that they just put up with me for the sake of things, I don't think most of them fully understand that I have may have bipolar and depression. I mean they seem to hate it and get annoyed when I'm on high but, then again, when I'm on a low, they don't care and they don't shut up saying "oh cheer up khloe" well in case you haven't noticed, that's easier said than done with me and my problems, and then when they are in a bad mood, its almost like they expect Everyone to make sure they are Ok and listen to them blabber on about their problems over and over again, when half of the time, that is one of the things that put me in a different mood. To be honest I'd rather go with no friends than have fake ones or ones that say shit about me and to me, I mean what kind of friend call their mates names? I mean I've been called an 'ignorant shit' 'crap friend' and a 'whore minded bitch' by my three best mates that I always thought would never say that sorta stuff to me. But I guess I was wrong :'( I just want friends that I 100% mean something to them, and who don't poke fun at me or my interests, just because they don't like it, I mean, I'm even scared to share what music I like with them, coz I know they'll judge or joke horribly about it, its that bad :( I guess at the end of the day, my choice is to not spill my emotions or problems or voice my opinion, people seem to like it better that way anyways... sorry this was so long but, at the end of the day, if I got stuff to say and get off my chest, then I'm gonna say it and no ones gonna stop me :'( 3

May 03 2013, 12:07 AM

Woo! I'm a single motherfucking pringle again and I'm loving life! xD His fault really, hegot rid of me because he was being pathetic and sulking at the fact I always go out to see mates and "apparently" everyone flirts with me and takes me away from him and shit. Like, yeah whatever :0 Oh well, I'm not about to bore people with his shit, so yeah, single and ready tomingle I think they say? I dunno, anyways, at least I can enjoy life without a sulky boy on my case, Argh boys! They just get on us girls nerves sometimes xD <3

May 01 2013, 11:33 PM

I feel like I'm slipping away from you. The more I spend time away from you, the more different and left out I feel. I know to stop that I should come see you guys more often, but when I do I feel like a stranger... You guys have so much fun when I'm not around and when you get me to agree to spend time with you, you promise it will be like when I'm not there. Fun. But its not even close to that. When I'm with you, you just don't seem to be what your like all those other times. Yeah, I know I love being on my own sometimes, and yeah I would love to spend time with you all because your my mates, but I just don't completely fit in with you guys any more. I mean, you all go off, talking bout stuff I've sometimes never even heard about. And for example when you are talking about some band I've never heard of, I ask who they are, and you think its weird that I haven't heard of them before, and you go and 'jokingly' over react with it. I just want friends that I 100% feel like I fit in, but most importantly, ones that understand my head, and let me express myself through my interests and join in with me. Another example, I love taking videos and pictures, but I'm never able to do that with you because you all back away and tell me you don't want to be in the pictures... I just don't know how to go about it, and yeah, it is hard telling you all to your faces, so that's why I put it on here, where none of you can read it. <3

May 01 2013, 01:47 PM

Argh!! :'(

Apr 14 2013, 12:39 PM

I swear I'm the happiest girl in the world right now... it feels like dream that I never want to end <3 <3

Apr 11 2013, 12:04 AM

I wake up today feeling the same Nothing different, I feel only pain Though this pain is different, it comes from the heart I should've seen this coming, right back from the start You say its me and what I've done But look at how I've changed, what I've become I work so hard to make you happy, but you only see my bad Why do you do this, it gets me so mad... Can't believe I just wrote all that so quickly... O.o honestly I'm done with going round in circles, I can't do this anymore, if he can't see I'm changing for him, then so be it... I just don't know if I should keep crying for him when he breaks my heart and says its me, or just be happy with the other guy I'm in love with and who likes me back... :'( 3

Apr 09 2013, 01:55 PM

After ever problem is solved why do you do go and make me fall in love with you again without you even realizing it :'( <3

Apr 05 2013, 08:47 AM

Ok, I've realized my mistakes now and I know you'll never probably see this but I'm going to make sure I'm the best thing that ever came into your life. I love you more than any other one of the 7 billion people on this planet and I mean that. I know I've fucked up and I promise never to do that again. I never want to loose those memories we have and I don't want them replaced by bad ones. I promise to be the best girlfriend in the world, I promise to make you happy, make you proud of me. I promise all of this and I will never break it, your right, having crushes on other people while I'm with you is wrong and heartbreaking, I'm going to stop and do everything in my will power to keep us together and keep what we had <3<3<3