Did you ever want to ever fall in love? You had me from the start. Did you ever have a clue? Did you? That I loved you. Smothered thoughts of just you. But you don't have a clue. Do you? Hollow Hearts, by Avion Roe
I Like: Music (emo, screamo, metal, anything alternative really and small doses of happy hardcore!), emo fashion, cars (got a Honda Integra Type R DC5 Rawr), pubs, rock clubs, gigs (including small local bands), cinema, chilling outside in pretty places (parks, forests, cliffs, beaches,...), falling in LOVE, chatty interesting people, play fighting, castles, churches, graveyards, Scarborough, Worcester, pizza, pasta, curry, walking, cats, dogs, ghosts, thunderstorms, volcanoes, earthquakes, the coast, taking risks, freedom, sarcasm, Web design, Web development, photography, Facebook, LastFM, YouTube, SoEmo of course :P...
I Dislike: Boring people, immature people, chavs, fakes, liars, jealousy, txt talk, spam, stress, petrol prices, the wind and rain, loneliness, time flying when I don't want it to...
Why eMoRaCeR? Well I like emo music and cars :] Thanks to Helen for suggesting it many years ago!
Oh and please don't ask where I am from or what bands I like. Take the time to read my profile...it's all there.
Finally everyone should buy a jar of Cadbury's instant chocolate, open it and have a good sniff - quite addicted now :-)
Skype, KiK, Snapchat, etc: I don't really have time for any of those so please do not harrass me about them xD
Favourite Music
36 Crazy Fists X Acceptance X ADTR (seen)X AFI X Aiden (seen) X Alexisonfire (seen) X Alesana (seen)X Alien Ant Farm (seen) X Alter Bridge X Amen X Anberlin X Another Rising X Armor For Sleep X ATDI X Atreyu (seen) X As I Lay Dying (seen) X A7X (seen) X Biffy (seen) X Blackhole (seen) X The Blackout (seen)X Black Sabbath (seen with Kate) XBlessthefall (seen) X Blink 182 X Brand New X Bring Me The Horizon X Bullet (seen 2x) X Circle Takes The Square X Coheed and Cambria X CoF X Dark Tranquility X Daughtry X Deftones X Dividing The Line (seen) X Drop Dead, Gorgeous (seen)X Escape the Fate (seen)X Evanescence (seen) X Everytime I Die (seen 2x)X FACT (seen) X Fall Out Boy X Feeder (seen) X FinchX Flood of Red (seen) X FATA X From First To Last X FFAF (seen 2x) XGlamour Of The Kill (seen) X Green Day X Hawthorne Heights (seen) X Hell is For Heroes X HORSE the band (seen) X In Flames (seen 2x) X InMe (seen) X Iron Maiden (seen) X The Killers X Killswitch (seen) X Korn (seen)X Lamb of God (seen) X Limb Bizkit (seen) X Linkin Park (seen) X Lost Prophets X Machine Head (seen) X Mastodom (seen) X Metallica (seen) X Millencolin X Million Dead X MUCC (seen) X Muse (seen) X MCR X NightwishX NIN (seen) X Opeth X Placebo X PTW X RAGE X Rammstein (seen) X Rise Against (seen) X Sense Field X Senses Fail X Shadows Fall X Silverstein (seen 3x) X SiKthX Skindred (seen) X SlipknotX Soil (seen) X SR-71 X ASL (wanna see live) X Still Remains (seen) X Story Of The Year (seen) X SOAD X TBS (seen) X Tenacious D X Thrice (seen) X Thursday (seen) X Tool X Trivium (seen) X The Used (seen 2x)X Twin Atlantic (seen) X Underoath (seen) X WASP (a bit - Fred :))X We Are The Ocean (seen)X Within Temptation X Yesterdays' Rising, etc blah
(also seen Gallows, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, B Movie Heroes, Bayside, Spitalfield, The Vincent Black Shadow, Sum41, Engerica, Lucida Console, Ghost of a Thousand, more supports, etc..)
TV: Not much these days... Shameless, Family Guy, American Dad, Simpsons, Top Gear, Neighbours, Green Wing, Beavis & Butthead, The Young Ones, Bottom, Peep Show, Skins...
Education / Occupation
Web developer
Who I'd Like To Meet
People I get on well with obviously! Emo's obviously including all you lot!! :]
I'd love to chat with everyone on here, but sadly I hardly have any free time so don't be offended if I don't talk to you or take a while to get back to you especially if you just say hi :]..
OK so I went in a "date" with someone called Abi this evening. By date it was more of a friendly no pressure thing.
Really glad I did as we got on really well and not a single awkward silence.
Love to see her again but not sure in what way.
Be good to just be friends and progress from there.
However I maybe messed that up a bit by kissing her when dropped her off home. Should have just hugged and left it at that.
Ah how complicated life and relationships are... Pretty much broken up with someone I have been with 4 and half years and lived together for 3 years.
Currently on a break. She stopped with friends for a week or so but was back yesterday which was very awkward just not even really talking. Not sleeping in the same bed, not eating together, not doing anything together.
The next time we actually sit down and chat I really do feel it will be a complete end to the relationship and even though it is probably the best thing for both of us (we have just drifted apart and COVID hasn't helped) I will certainly be very sad for a while. This is my longest relationship and we have so many memories especially prior to COVID.
Also what makes it even more complicated than any past relationships is that we jointly own the house we live in so we'll have to work out what'll happen with that. One of us buys the other out and stays here or sell the house and both move. Both are going to be very difficult financially.
Anyway sharing my thoughts has helped a little bit.
Weird seeing my ex out tonight. Maybe I should have made a go with her rather than being an idiot... I really struggle with the past and relationships. I contemplate life so much and it complicates my life. Meh
BMTH always has a song to suit my mood. I love them so much
"We hurt ourselves for fun
Force-feed our fear until our hearts go numb
Addicted to a lonely kind of love
What I wanna know
Is how we got this stressed out, paranoid
Everything is going dark
Nothing makes me sadder than my head
I'm running outta teardrops, let it hurt 'til it stops
I can't keep my grip, I'm slipping away from me
Oh, God, everything is so fucked, but I can't feel a thing
The emptiness is heavier than you think
I'm tripping on the edge
High as a kite, I'm never coming down
And if you hear me, guess you know how it feels
To be alone
So how'd we get this stressed out, paranoid?
Everything is going dark
Nothing makes me sadder than my head
I'm running outta teardrops, let it hurt till it stops
I can't keep my grip, I'm slipping away from me
Oh, God, everything is so fucked, but I can't feel a thing
The emptiness is heavier than you think
Suicidal, violent tragic state of mind
Lost my halo, now I'm my own anti-christ
Suicidal, violent, tragic state of mind
Lost my halo, now I'm my own anti-christ
I'm running outta teardrops, let it hurt 'til it stops
I can't keep my grip, I'm slipping away from me
Oh, God, everything is so fucked, but I can't feel a thing
The emptiness is heavier than you think
I'm running outta teardrops, let it hurt 'til it stops
I can't keep my grip, I'm slipping away from me
Oh, God, everything is so fucked, but I can't feel a thing
The emptiness is heavier than you think
The emptiness is heavier than you think"
