The devotion you give
Down on aching knees
Using your throat as a sieve
While the ghosts of your rejections
Haunt the places you've forgotten the pleasure of the pain, by Fearless Vampire Killlers
I Like: Music (emo, screamo, metal, anything alternative really and small doses of happy hardcore!), emo fashion, cars (got a Honda Integra Type R DC5 Rawr), pubs, rock clubs, gigs (including small local bands), cinema, chilling outside in pretty places (parks, forests, cliffs, beaches,...), falling in LOVE, chatty interesting people, play fighting, castles, churches, graveyards, Scarborough, Worcester, pizza, pasta, curry, walking, cats, dogs, ghosts, thunderstorms, volcanoes, earthquakes, the coast, taking risks, freedom, sarcasm, Web design, Web development, photography, Facebook, LastFM, YouTube, SoEmo of course :P...
I Dislike: Boring people, immature people, chavs, fakes, liars, jealousy, txt talk, spam, stress, petrol prices, the wind and rain, loneliness, time flying when I don't want it to...
Why eMoRaCeR? Well I like emo music and cars :] Thanks to Helen for suggesting it many years ago!
Oh and please don't ask where I am from or what bands I like. Take the time to read my profile...it's all there.
Finally everyone should buy a jar of Cadbury's instant chocolate, open it and have a good sniff - quite addicted now :-)
Skype, KiK, Snapchat, etc: I don't really have time for any of those so please do not harrass me about them xD
Favourite Music
36 Crazy Fists X Acceptance X ADTR (seen)X AFI X Aiden (seen) X Alexisonfire (seen) X Alesana (seen)X Alien Ant Farm (seen) X Alter Bridge X Amen X Anberlin X Another Rising X Armor For Sleep X ATDI X Atreyu (seen) X As I Lay Dying (seen) X A7X (seen) X Biffy (seen) X Blackhole (seen) X The Blackout (seen)X Black Sabbath (seen with Kate) XBlessthefall (seen) X Blink 182 X Brand New X Bring Me The Horizon X Bullet (seen 2x) X Circle Takes The Square X Coheed and Cambria X CoF X Dark Tranquility X Daughtry X Deftones X Dividing The Line (seen) X Drop Dead, Gorgeous (seen)X Escape the Fate (seen)X Evanescence (seen) X Everytime I Die (seen 2x)X FACT (seen) X Fall Out Boy X Feeder (seen) X FinchX Flood of Red (seen) X FATA X From First To Last X FFAF (seen 2x) XGlamour Of The Kill (seen) X Green Day X Hawthorne Heights (seen) X Hell is For Heroes X HORSE the band (seen) X In Flames (seen 2x) X InMe (seen) X Iron Maiden (seen) X The Killers X Killswitch (seen) X Korn (seen)X Lamb of God (seen) X Limb Bizkit (seen) X Linkin Park (seen) X Lost Prophets X Machine Head (seen) X Mastodom (seen) X Metallica (seen) X Millencolin X Million Dead X MUCC (seen) X Muse (seen) X MCR X NightwishX NIN (seen) X Opeth X Placebo X PTW X RAGE X Rammstein (seen) X Rise Against (seen) X Sense Field X Senses Fail X Shadows Fall X Silverstein (seen 3x) X SiKthX Skindred (seen) X SlipknotX Soil (seen) X SR-71 X ASL (wanna see live) X Still Remains (seen) X Story Of The Year (seen) X SOAD X TBS (seen) X Tenacious D X Thrice (seen) X Thursday (seen) X Tool X Trivium (seen) X The Used (seen 2x)X Twin Atlantic (seen) X Underoath (seen) X WASP (a bit - Fred :))X We Are The Ocean (seen)X Within Temptation X Yesterdays' Rising, etc blah
(also seen Gallows, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, B Movie Heroes, Bayside, Spitalfield, The Vincent Black Shadow, Sum41, Engerica, Lucida Console, Ghost of a Thousand, more supports, etc..)
TV: Not much these days... Shameless, Family Guy, American Dad, Simpsons, Top Gear, Neighbours, Green Wing, Beavis & Butthead, The Young Ones, Bottom, Peep Show, Skins...
Education / Occupation
Web developer
Who I'd Like To Meet
People I get on well with obviously! Emo's obviously including all you lot!! :]
I'd love to chat with everyone on here, but sadly I hardly have any free time so don't be offended if I don't talk to you or take a while to get back to you especially if you just say hi :]..
So after a 4+ year relationship with someone I originally met off here I became single on May 3rd. It was upsetting ending it after so long and so many memories shared, but it was a mutual thing. We just couldn't continue making it work for various reasons including the distance.
A few weeks on and life is going fine and I'm sure both of us will be happy again =] Just got to go with the flow..
Well I'd like to document the weekend for numerous reasons...
I turned to vodka and got shit-faced which was a bad idea. However I was looked after well which I really do appreciate. Despite that it was good/interesting to meet up again. I quite fancy getting the Gandalf stick so it can take pride of place in my garden and forever remind me about the night haha.
Oh and some stuff was said and I'd say it was 50/50 if it was surprising or common knowledge brushed under the carpet on both sides. Either way it doesn't change anything... got to love those 3 dots mmm...
Play it cool. Be smart. Don't let things get to you too much.
These 3 things are something I've certainly learnt in the last 5 or so years and it's certainly made me rise above some situations/people at times.
Really hope the weather will be ok this weekend as fancy going on this long walk I've wanted to for a while. Love exploring when I'm not getting battered by the wind and rain that is =]
I really could write so much after the last few months, but is it even worth it? Will it do my any good? Will I learn any lessons? Probably not so back to my coffee and YouTube :D
Warning long waffly entry xD
Places wouldn't mind exploring (with whoever is interested): London (been numerous times but always lots to do), Edinburgh (always fancied going but very far to drive), Brighton (never been but lots to see and do apparently), Bournemouth (already planned that one been before but love it), York (been many times but still fancy going back), Scarborough (use to live there and will always hold a special place in my heart), Bristol (been before including long weekend and was worth it), Southend on Sea (never been but looks interesting), Devon (can't not like this part of the UK), Suffolk (as per Southend on sea).
I even want to explore more parts of my local area Worcester and Malvern (when the weather is better). I also want to go abroad next year most likely in Europe somewhere. Nothing too expensive.
More things want to do in next few months: sell my car, get new car, keep up my fitness, see people promised, go to local car meets (including Worcester one and shelsley Walsh), car shows, gigs, finish new SoEmo then get onto my next big idea, get this damn tattoo, consider a new job (like the people I work with and the work mainly but need a new bigger challenge and prospects), continue sorting my house out. Oh and drink more JD :p
There will be loads more stuff too just thought it was a good time to post this especially after seeing a friend posting something this morning.
Ok so stuff happened at the weekend. I was hesitant in going all the way but don't think I regret it. We were just going with the flow and in a way it was inevitable and well it takes 2 to tango. I'd really love to know their full side of the story though and what they were on about in messaging the other day. I have a feeling it's down to whether or not I like them more a friend..
Either way they are an amazing friend and I want to keep it that way :)
We are still talking and all seems fine so I look forward to seeing them again and curious how things will pan out on that meet. Not fussed if it's a repeat of what happened last time or not. If it is a repeat I won't hold back haha..
Ok now I'm finally home and can chill out tonight I have time to over think badly...
I'm not exactly unhappy or depressed, but I'm incredibly unstable and finding it very difficult to cope with everything - people, feelings, life in general.
I guess this is a mini cry for help, so if anyone can truly try understand and help please do :)
Also I know this may come as a surprise to some people who think I'm always doing fine and have my feet firmly on the ground..
Writing this was difficult for me and probably won't do any good but yea..
