okay...
i asked to hang out
you said you had to go to your grandmas.
but then youre hanging out with him?
whatever. i see how it is. ever since he came in youre always with him
im second anyways.
so i promised my bestfriend i wouldnt cut anymore.
this will be the hardest thing ive ever done.
you cant just stop cutting.
but im going to try, because i live for her. <3
i'm ready to give up....
ive limited what im eating. by alot.
but hey im now at 110 pounds. i want to be 100 poounds. i would be so freaking happy if that happened. im happy to be at 110!
i still have my stomach fat tho and im not quite at a thigh gap yet...but hopefully itll happen one day soon...
ive been fat my whole life and im tired of it
i realized when i became a vegetarian and lost 20 pounds because of it\\
since then things have never been the same.
this letter i was given today was meant for my ex-boyfriend bobby, but his bestfriend tanner gave it to me (tanner loves me). the note reads:
how are you gonna talk about the girls that i date when you dont even have one in the first place. you dated tanneth who dyed her hair with a mix of blue and red. she looks like a monster that would be under my bed. then she got blonde hair extensions, she then looked like a demon from the dark demension/ you need to pay attention to my raps before you say its a notalent activity. if you knewa bout raps you would know it takes creativity. im done dissin you i have enough enemies.
seriously. that pisses me off. if u have shit to say about me then say it to my face. dont write about it in a note to make my ex boyfriend mad, he thought i was beautiful. your words wont change that. i know ur trying to piss off bobby (my ex) but all you did was piss me off. dont deny you wrote that when i know you did -.- and my name is TANNITH not TANNETH so before you act all tough make sure u know how to spell.
seriously? why does my life piss people off.
does me being alive piss you off?? seriously.
sorry i piss you off so damn much.
dont get mad at me because of my life problems
dont get mad at me because i wont tell you someone elses secret
how would you like if i told your secret to someone?
exactly.
so stop getting mad at me damn.
im seriously so done.
none of my friends are even real.
im fat ugly and useless.
if i cant be happy with who i am, why should i even live?
i want to dissapear!!!
i have no one . i need someone.
sooooo i'm debating on weather i should eat or not...
i just want to be skinny.
my stomachs growling. thats no lie.
but should i eat? or should i not.
i actually lost 8 pounds over the last two weeks but i dont even know how. 123-115
well , i did cut down on what i eat so maybe thats it.
i wish i could just be happy with who i am.
if i was skinnier i would be.
i also wish i wasnt depressed.
i'm not sure if being skinny would solve that problem.
