Even if I say, it will be alright. Still I hear you say, you want to end your life. Now and again we try to just stay alive. Maybe we'll turn it all around, 'Cause it's not too late. It's never too late. Never too late, by Three Days Grace
Neokandi The Fanged
20 / Nonbinary / Tipperary, Ireland
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Jan 29, 2021
Last online:
Nov 20, 2024
Current rating: 8.0/10 (56 votes cast)
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About Me
I'm Kandi, I'm genderqueer and use all pronouns (don't be weird about it). I like drawing, skating, fashion, witchcraft and music. I use an ipod and a flip phone and that makes me interesting to other people apparently. I'm also autistic. My favourite colour is pink and my favourite food is sushi and salt and chilli crispy chicken. XD
Favourite Music
END, Malevolence, Bloodywood, Asking Alexandria, Pierce the Veil, Black Veil Brides, Sleeping With Sirens, My Chemical Romance, Motionless in White, Korn, Rob Zombie, Nine Inch Nails, Nightwish, Falling In Reverse, Kittie, S3RL, Distatix, Lacuna Coil, Five Finger Death Punch, goreshit, Linkin Park, Icon of Coil, Sisters of Mercy.
In general I like metal, emo, techno, 2000s nightcore, and a little bit of goth.
Some awesome local bands you should absolutely check out! : Unmaker, War of Attrition, Pain in Vain, Neon Empire, Ravenlight.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Movies: The Craft, Jennifer's Body, Ginger Snaps, Carrie, The Matrix (I think they're all good, even the new one), Queen of the Damned, Fight Club.
Cartoons: Invader Zim, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Adventure Time, Grojband, Miraculous, Winx Club, Monster High.
Anime: Naruto, Senki Zesshou Symphogear, Rosario Vampire, Death Note, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Serial Experiments Lain.
Books/Comics: Yu Gi Oh, Twilight, His Dark Materials, Millennium Gothic.
Other Media: What We Do In The Shadows.
Education / Occupation
Shop lifter and attempted artist (neokandis-hardcore-art on tumblr, NeokandisHardcoreArt on DeviantArt). No I don't have a real job, my goal in life is to become as big of a degenerate as possible <3
haven't been on here in ages but I'm back to avoid doom scrolling after US election results... but let's not talk about that. send me a message if you feel like it. :3
I don't normally post about this stuff but this has to be THE most unhinged message I've ever received ever.
Why do people do this? Has this ever worked on anyone? Has anyone ever been like "Ooh yes blank profile, I'd love that <3" like why even bother sending these, no one's gonna respond positively. I went to block them and the account was already deleted too. XD
I just had an unpleasant conversation on here where they were like "ugh why'd you add me when you don't know me" bro you are on the adding random people website??? and then they had to go and be transphobic to me. Like is it just me? I get random friend requests all the time. I've sent out a bunch of random friend requests before with no issue. Like that's kinda just what you do on here, sending a friend request is like an invitation to talk to you. Why are you on here if not to interact with random people?
Does anyone know any good MP3 players? I love my ipod but I just had a huge drama with no chargers working for it unless I bought them directly from apple, so I'd like to switch maybe.
Hey, if any of you have tumblr or deviantart it would be super cool if you could give my art some attention, I really need it to get commissions. Thanks, really appreciate it.
I hate how no one talks about how advice like "you have to love yourself before others can love you" or "you need to be completely independent emotionally before you can have friends" really is. I keep seeing this type of thing being spread as like, empowering healthy advice your therapist would give you for becoming the best version of yourself, and my mentally ill brain has grabbed hold of it and used it as fuel for self harm. because it's framed as a positive thing I can isolate myself to hurt myself and easily justify it with stupid advice like this. we're social animals, we're not supposed to be able to function without a support system. hating yourself doesn't make you unlovable. you deserve friends no matter what. and yet, even though I know all this, I still can't stop hurting myself because this advice is literally never criticised and held up as like, the ultimate way to be happy by so many people. I've never seen anyone else talk about how bad this mindset can be.
I forgot my ID and didn't get into the concert. I wasted €100 on a hotel for nothing, and did that 5 hour train journey for nothing. I just walked around the city crying for like an hour. I feel like the world's biggest idiot. I've learned my lesson, I'm just not meant to enjoy life, I don't deserve it. I need to accept my suffering instead of trying to escape it by trying to have fun. it's never going to work. I'm just not meant to be alive.
Literally nothing goes right ever. I was supposed to go to a concert tomorrow and because I left buying train tickets too late I'm gonna have to take a 5 hour train ride to get there when it originally would've only taken 2 hours... which gives me very little time to check into the hotel and get to the concert. I shouldn't even be doing this, I should be saving money and getting a job. and then I wonder how I can't afford to move out of my parent's house. how am I even allowed to be alive, how do people not get the death sentence for being this dysfunctional. I wish I could assassinate whoever's in charge of Irish public transport. How is 5 hours to Dublin in any way acceptable? I literally live like 2 hours away from Dublin.