But every time you scream & shout
I can feel the pain that your heart pours out
&& I love it so dearly
The adrenaline rush drowns out my headache && the hatred surpasses all the heartbreak
&& Oh, I adore it, Baby
Sweet Agony, by Liars Hands
its amazing how much words hurt..i dont think ive ever felt more pathetic and worthless in my whole life..no1 even cares that all im doing is suffering all they believe is the fake smile on my face..fuck it all!! i just pray sweet death comes very soon before i take care of the problem myself.
damn its been forever since ive been on here :/ i hope every1 is doing ok virginia is pretty awesome but i cant stand the heat -.-'' oh well im registering for school tomorrow (what fun -.-) all ive mostly been doing is blasting music in my ears and hang out with my cuzins and my brother but yea srry i havent been on the internet is pure crap soon ill have decent internet but for now add me on aol or yahoo or add me on facebook :P im off to bed buh bye :3
well people..no more computer for a while since im moving in 2 days..im gunna have to take a long break but if u have my number u can call or txt me as much as u want or talk to me on yahoo aol or facebook..im leavin it all here..bye guys ;[
yahoo: xxsacrificedxx
aol:bubbles23077 or jennyfur22397
facebook: (on my profile)
#: 845 282 3054
ive been up all night just thinking..i came to the conclusion that ppl treat me the way that they do b/c im too soft..well not anymore. im tired of evry1 thinking they can walk all over me just b/c i have a soft heart or b/c i show too much kindness..u know u really shouldnt take that for granted but w.e i feel blindingly angry enough as it is b/c i cant change that about me but at least i can fight back and we both know who'd win.
ROUGH DAY!!! i feel like crap right now cant sleep for shit all i think about is wat happened i keep trembling reliving each moment...this is y im waiting to move or for death..whichever comes first..i really need some1 right now but it breaks my heart knowing he's not there..i need to know tht there is some1 out there listening..damn y do i feel so much pain? y do i feel so damn cold? God will some1 hear me! will some1 help me?! i dont think ive felt this alone ever..
today, i started to think. if im changing myself physically, i should change myself internally as well. i've decided to MAKE AN ATTEMPT to start living a happier life. i've also decided to change my nickname. i no longer go by "jenny". instead i prefer to go by "Jennii"
5am i cnt sleep all i think about is just disappearing just going far far away from my life to just forget about it all and just focus on the possibilities that lie ahead for me..considering the crappy week ive had its taken alot of will power and the help of friends to keep me from breaking my promise i love u guys and i wanna ty for being there for me and supporting me u dont know how much it means to me to know tht there r others out there like me..i pray that the week to come will be much better cnt wait til monday i could definitely use a trip to virginia right now to clear my head and prepare myself to move..
im so confused! i don't think i've ever been this confused EVER! no1 can help me through this so i've never felt more alone-.- i pray that some1 understands me and gives me advice to get over this! 3
today was the start of the upcoming changes tomorrow im changing my hair completely (no surprise there -.-) its a secwet so u have to wait til tomorrow ^^ can't wait :3